Updates

Hey everyone, that is if there still is anyone. Than you guys are just loyal or is just really bored and I'm just a last resort for entertainment.

Quick update though, school play just finish and it ended up in succession that we never dreamed. I've made wonderful memories, gained lovely experiences and got slimmer. Mwahaha.

Now there is just finals and we shall achieve total freedom until "the year". Being the year where it shall be my last year of high school. A year mixed with decisions, restricted from my hobbies and usual procrastination, of finding comfort in sleep than anything else and constant cramming of books. I will truly sacrifice next year and I hope I stay dedicated to just doing that. Until then, I will snap themed shots, style the crap out of some clothing pieces to relish and to just own the lifestyle of fashion over practicality before I submit to a year of sweatpants and hoodies, increase my diy skills like the sims and just mainly be an adventure seeker when given the chance to whilst being inspired as an artist. I will all that while keeping in mind to develop a studious habit.

Its a countdown to the phase I must go through as a form5 and my time to rock and roll in whatever important aspects of my life before that is less than 3 months. Its not a lot, so you better start making do of things.

Standing on electrical wires

Pigeons are just such daredevils. They clutch their claws onto those electrical cords like its nothing but I always just thought that very action wasn't very wise. You think you'll find roasted birds down by the road underneath those things but you don't. Pigeons are legitimately hardcore, except when they fly away from you holding not even a crumb of bread to pay for they company. Their kinda bitchy that way but hey, aren't we all secretly at times?

So its 9 in the morning, I've just took my bath and did my usual face regime which includes pretty much cleansing, toning and a quick swab of SPF.  My mom just got back from her blood test and shes feeling tired so I let her. Despite my stomach growling, I have the highest tolerance for an empty stomach. My head is in a random pile of thoughts that needs to be type, regardless of coordination of the topics or  fact and even more so with what I have in mind. I need a brain wash.

This year have past like the episodes of a season and only the dramas and significant event comes to my mind but there are also the little things about the people around me and me around the people. When someone throws their head back to laugh, the stifling smiles and the roundabout choice of words aimed to make their intention semi-permeable to people they know.We're all just this one big pile of flaws, stitched together by good intentions.

I've draft this and is continuing to type it at 7.28pm now. Listening to my all time favourite Florence and the machines. I spent the day taking pictures of people from the car around the city, I had a few suspicious stares for my brazen act today. I've just text my co-photographer if she was ready for tomorrow's shoot but no reply which inclines me to be a tinsy bit anxious though she mostly like just don't have her phone right now. Strict Asian parents guys. And I also texted of our models if she officially had the full OK for the next day to which seem just a partial OK so far to my knowledge and she isn't answering. I'm hoping she gets my message and answer me stat for I fear that I'll have wronged my Mom in getting up early and picking her up from her house first before destination when it turns out she can't go at all. This does not only wasted gas, time, money and sleeping minutes but which decreases trust and no one can afford to lose trust with their parents, not me. Anxious anxious.

While out text snapping with my babe, I was also trying to find bubble liquid with the blower. I least wanted a bottle with a simple shaped blower but more ideally one with a heart shape. However Giant is the supermarket that sold ones with weird out shapes of blowers and barely enough bottle of bubble liquid. Why I remember finding these guys just anywhere in abundance at the most local shop for such a cheap cheap cheap price. I eventually found one that was the least normal of shapes which is these line of circles arranged from big to small of a blower that provided a good enough amount of liquid. Now I wanted two bottles for one for each of our two models but it cost RM8.90 per bottle which is absuuuurrrddd. Like really? REALLY? I would pay nearly RM18 for two so I immediately just bought one without a second thought. Sure they had the ones where you use a gun or blow in a horribly ugly pipe but it wasn't what I wanted for my pictures which what made finding old school bubble bottle so hard to find for me.

Well, I hope tomorrow will make it all worth it. I'll be smelling in the ocean. Hopefully we'll capture a lot of light and just expressions. And hopefully my effort in reading and a few days practising will be evidently good enough for myself. And that is for today, again wish me luck tomorrow.

Bring out the lenses

So here is that promised Monday post. I've just finished my last exam day and totally did not know that there was school tomorrow still which is unfortunate since I made plans but then again I might cancel since my Mom more keen on the fact I should go, though I'm convinced I'll be the only girl in my class if that were to happen.

So my friends and I are going somewhere with our plans on our photoshoot but still not enough is confirmed to officially send of the OK of this event.

Still my friend who is the other more awesome than I photographer/editor lend me an all-you-need-to-know-on-cameras book that I'm reading from to help be more reacquainted with my old baby as you can see from the photo above. I need to really be creative in order to do my 'Idle' themed series.

Wish me luck guys <3

Blowing the dust off

Hi. I go by the name Sweetme. I hope I'm not quite forgotten. Or maybe I am and if so, I shall remind you all again. 

Okay now that we got the odd introduction aside, I would like to apologize for my absence. Due to my life as a student and my obligations towards my other artistic interest, my laptop have been collecting dust. Literally. I had to wipe it clean and as you can see I just changed the blog's background and template. Now its just posting something to bring this whole site alive

Anyway,I bear good news, at least I hope it is to anyone who enjoys reading my posts or still does. So I'm not sure if I mention before but I got 3 A's for PMR which validated me to get a tablet from my brother, Melvin. Despite how he may be, he loves to spoils me on anything technology and internet related. Its his lane of expertise and got me a Nexus 7. You don't know this but my brother is not in favour of apple products and I was okay with anything as long as I got my own tablet thus explain his choice.

I'm a pretty humble person with technology. I've never ask much of it and my phone is a simple slide up nokia. Now I've got projects and plenty of innovations to achieve, so you'll be seeing me a lot in the next 2 weeks. Especially with my tablet, I think you'll find loads of posts and hopefully pictures as well. I'm loving my nexus right now and we've bonded. I took a lot of selfies and my favourite part of all is getting to check my emails. Granted its use is limited without the internet or any wifi but my emails will be there and I can catch up with everything. Both my contacts and my accounts. Call me weird but I feel bliss at that one perk. And for those who don't know, watsapp and the like aren't completely compatible with my tablet so just try and find me through either line or kakao talk.

I'll admit I've been editing a lot. I can't put a label as to what are my photos are cause I'm not sure of myself but I'll always take ones that inspire me to quote them. I used mostly ones I know and put quotes of my own at times as well. I am even thinking of trying to set up a shoot with a good frined of mine

I've also been keen on DIY's and yes, still into make-up. In fact I got a couple of DIY projects that I am co-operating with a very interested friend as a surprise for other friends. You know who you are haha. I'm so stoke about the holidays that I can't wait. Will post again on Monday! Bye guys!

Dreams to achieve, No idea where or how

So since some misunderstanding, I didn't get to work to this Education UK Exhibition last Saturday but I went to the fair itself with my bro Melvin and my mom.  I was asked (more like forced) to check out the list of colleges and universities that would be there and narrow that down to just unis and cut out a few bit of unis who didn't had courses I like so that we saved up more time since later we had a family event to go. We only visited those unis that I didn't cut.

My bro pretty much started off by letting me go to them but it was my first time and I didn't really had any questions, especially since I was only turning 16 this month. And my bro was like next time, you can't simply be not prepared for these kind of things and I took that into account. I had fun despite it being a bit energy draining but mostly had fun in a sense. I talk to a lot of people who I am so thankful have this cosmic patients with someone who could answer back short answers and not really hopeful ones. I really like talking to this one guy from the University of Derby who was from knew more towards courses involving humanities. There were so nice and I really had an interesting talk with them. I felt I belonged you know and if you could feel that an unfamiliar surrounding, I say thats one of the best right?

I have loads of prospectus too and freebies.Oooohh the freebies. Anyway, it did felt at first awkward to brag randomly a prospectus or a brochure and checking it out with the staff just approaching you. I gain a lot still at the end of the day. Felt really happy.

I still have some prospectus to check out. It lies on the floor, seemingly carrying an air of mighty and mysterious wonders of college life and choices.Often I close my eyes a lot lately, picturing me in my small dorm room. A must-do essay in the screen of my laptop right in from of me. I imagine occasionally when my mind gone blank and when I couldn't find the right word nor the inspiration to continue, I would take a glance up and my ceiling or at my small shelf of books that I've hand picked to bring from Sabah. "Catcher in the Rye", "Lord of the flies". "The Sweet Far Thing", "This is Not a Test"...etc. And I felt a sort of bliss from that. That independence and freedom to yourself. Gah.

I really can't wait for the unexpected in that future. 

Whatchu guys think?

For those of you who don't know or remember, this is my second blog. I still very much know how to log in to my first one and its the sane blog that made me made this blog as an escape from my Fam who would not come to appreciate/accept my teen angst and desires and opinions much as you guys. However I've been developing a sense of anger at how because this blog isn't supposed to be known to my family, I go under the name as "sweetme" which cause me to develop a persona where its me which is great as I have to best freedom to express myself fully but it also makes me have to be careful with pictures which I'm way to lazy and too reluctant to share on FB because if I'm going to put real live pics involving my life, I like to write about them.

I like to write a LOT about them. Worthy of putting in a blog and lately thanks to google chrome apps, I get to edit the picture in a way I like them to be and wish to share them with people. So I'm not asking whether I should drop this blog cause this will still act as my board of expressing myself but what I am asking you guys is, should I reboot my old blog where I'll post on events that has pictures I've collected? I even consider to post my random act of DIY, make-up sesh or interviews. Of course I would need to revamp on its looks as I have left it like so since 2009 and its really designed old.

So comment if you think I should revive me old blog!

Reflection and Updates

When I wake up in the morning on a cloudy weather, a sky that is just too lazy to decide whether it should be a sunny day or a rainy day, I began my day feeling relaxed and he who dare disrupt this vibe before 10 a.m. will suddenly get a very moody girl for no absolute reason. When I wake up in the morning in this weather, I will most likely post something as a way to reflect. I am one of those people that won't really know how to properly understand something in order until I write it and read it over to see if it's correctly express me.

School

I'm fulfilling one of my New Year's resolution of having a fulfilling academic and active extracurricular school life. I never expect it to be so hectic and it feel like the homework I get in Science stream is like I'm working in the office or I'm Uni already. So different from last year where I literally was able to afford procrastinate periods and now its more like I'm trying to implicate the slogan "Work HARD and Play HARD." into my life. You all must see my planner, all the work days have something for me to do and expect and you look at my weekends which are so empty because that would be the two days I fulfill my work and I'll sneak in some computer time. Even took up tuition which I have never really liked because of past experiences with them so I'm hoping I won't have to repeat the same mistakes then now.

I also got my mooting competition, still waiting for that email on some help with finding a lawyer to teach us for free, if not we'll have to pay and that just sucks. So bad for me cuz I've feel its so unfair but ah wells. Theres gonna be some awesome helping work (forgot what was it exactly) by my Leo club on my birthday which I'm looking forward to do. Nothing like doing good on your birthday no?

My brothers find it very relieving that my second and third fav subjects are Physics and Bio. Like they give me that "glad-to-know-you're-sorta-following-our-footsteps" look. Seeing they knew straight away they go for Science without even comparing or considering Commerce, when I did both instead of having a straight forward idea about my upper form future like they did. Despite that, they also love to tell me never to be an engineer, I'll be a slave to an office cubicle like them and they know I hate that work. Or don't be a lawyer, higher chance of building a stuck-up attitude and nobody loves an ass to the core, guy or girl. I didn't know whether to feel happy that they cared or miffed at how many time their telling me this a lot lately in our skype sesh or laugh at their serious reasons for their advice.


Interest

I'm still in on the make-up interest but more so on prepping and looking after your natural beauty side of it. Been really into knowing more on whats in the cleanser, toner, cream and other products. I'm hoping next month for some colorful array of eye liners, particularly a periwinkle one. They make great definition for the eyes and the dimension it makes can make it slightly more fun than using a white one.

I've also been really into fashion again and I'm hoping my wonderful sister-in-law is able to deliver some Forever21 spring and summer tees! I've been inspired to style up with my graphic tees and I'm into getting more really unique ones that I like. I'm not into those Nirvana tees because one I haven't got to really listen to their song so that will have to hold but I'm dead set on getting an animal graphic tee and a mustache one. I've also been contemplating whether or not I should learn to sport a bustier, like those aztec or denim ones this year? Maybe next year. Or this year? Hmmm. Still in love with sweaters and its soon spring so I'm hoping to see lots of color in KK. P.S. the color green mint might be a trend for this floral season so go spread some minty freshness on the street! It really brightens your day!

Pinterest is my main source of inspiration and lately it leads me to feeling to pick up a hobby, not a serious one, just one where I could do once in awhile. Like maybe DIY stuff, I might try to take up learning to buy stuff online but I still need to discuss about it with my Mom. Oh and I'm just slightly embarrassed but lately I've been really into watching Grey's Anatomy S8. I never like the previous seasons so I didn't really watch much but this season is really good. I love the stories on their patient and the lives of the cast. It really teaches you about life and how unimaginable challenges and burdens can come when a human life is in their hands. Totally recommend to watch this seasons show!

Family

Its been rough, especially with my dad. I'm starting to think he is showing signs of bipolar symptoms. I'm not kidding but its not like I'm a licensed doctor so I'll just wait for more concrete evidence to prove whether my hypothesis is correct. I am super off-the-earth-and-into-space happy about the fact that my bro is coming next month and staying for like two weeks though not long enough to my birthday but its still wonderful news and my sis-in-law might drop a visit to give some souvenirs So she asked me if I wanted anything over there.

"Like lets say something Forever21?" she thought aloud, smiling knowingly.

And I said "Yesss!" when really what I wanted to state in my mind was "Hell yeah!!". So I literally emailed a list on shirts and skirts I want, all under $20 so I feel guilt free. 

 
I had a really fun skype sesh with Melvin. We talk about literature and he gave a tour of his new home he shares with his gf. I smile and nodded at all the DIY ikea furniture he mostly got and did himself. And how they didn't want a clock to be the center of this real nice tall white shelf in the living room because then invited guess might perceive it as a symbol that they their lives centrals around time (like doing everything on time exactly, down to its nano seconds sort of ordered life. It'll be the spot where it shows what they just love mainly or along the lines of that so they pick carefully for 20 minutes.). So the lucky object that gets to be the main point of the shelf of the house they decided was a bottle of expensive wine. I laughed so hard at that conclusion and saw the purple bottle just standing out from the rest of books and decor that was placed elsewhere in the shelf. It really does MAKE a difference with what you put at the center place of a home.

 The best thing was that the conversation had everything that we wanted to tell each other yet it was so random with half of the topics and the jokes we made. For once, in my bro's humor for mentioning any involvement of boys in my life, I allow him his satisfaction. Cause usually I just cut him off quick and blunt so I have a feeling he made it his sworn mission to make me compete in one proper clever conversation of banter about my love life that he is so keen that I'm a total activist in it. I was typing an email to an association about help (true story, despite how office that sounded like) and he knew I wasn't paying attention to him so when I responded to late, he noticed.

"Did you hear what I said?" He asked.

 "*type*type* Hm?.......Err...Yesss" Nice cover up there, that was so sincere sweetme.

"Oh thanks ah!" He smiles and I can hear Joanna (aka his gf) snickering at him for being ignored.

"No, I was just busy trying to finish typing an email." I retaliated honestly.

"Oooooohhhh, to whom?" Wiggling eyebrows at me.

"To somebooodee~." I gave him a smirk and a wink.

"Ooooooohhhh~"

"From the sabah law association you suggested before to find a lawyer for my mooting competition." I finished and he paused, gave a blank look to me and laughed. So that was what went down and there were more laughing here and there and random tease and jokes. I loved it.

Others 

I still haven't come up with my sweet sixteen quite yet. My cousies have some ideas but they don't involve what I want to achieve. Might have to discuss that with Mom. Ooohh I also got this one day job thing with a friend at a UK Education expo, real excited for that. I'm just prying for any experiences and this is a great start to exactly that. 

Karaoke with Sam and my lil cousie who will be referred to as Geo for short and he's 11 in case y'all don't know. I mostly rapped though and Geo, for a boy, he's voice is awesome but he's so shy at times. Still think he would make a good singer if he wanted to. Ate cake at secret recipe. Played at the arcade which I haven't done for SO long. Saw some aztec skirts that I made a mental note of trying out next time I see them. We made those jokes that aren't so funny but with people you're close to, it just is and you laugh like mad about it together. We took some random pics too like in the car and some candid dancing they did in the arcade. Now I bring my olympus a lot but the problem is remembering to charge it. However, when the unplanned happens, its really worth carrying it around for no reason cause then we are able to file in some memories and who doesn't love to look back at happy ones? 

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So this is when I read this whole post again and reflect and I've filled with this warm fuzzy feeling and filled with this nice light happy mixture in my heart. I feel alive and present. Me having troubles with my family makes me alive. Me studying and going to school and doing homeworks makes me alive. Typing this and all of you reading this makes me alive. It really alters your perspective and even though they were horribly bad times too, they were just bad times. Doesn't mean I'm having a bad life. This is why I like to reflect in writing, it gives me a clarity that I need for me. And that I think, makes writing this post worth something.