Let me get this straight in ur damn head.

I have my own ways of thinking. I have my own path that I desire to take. Sure when I say this, adults wouldn't take me seriously since I am still young. Maybe they're right but nevertheless, its still something I choose. I'm old enough to at least choose now. Once you're close to teen hood, that right to choose something is entitled to you. Sure, I have no right to push what I believe or think onto others but that doesn't mean they have the right to the same at me. You don't need others to believe your beliefs. You just need yourself to believe it. Thats enough.

Though I have met a few who wanted others to believe that they're opinions right, I simply understand their thoughts and soon it helps expand my own world of thought. I can't always agree, I might disagree. I can simply only understand and give an opinion. I can't believe. So why? Why the fuck can't you do the same? I don't expect you to believe but if you're going to butt in about my priorities of my life than couldn't you at least do it that way? Why must you debate? Because no matter how right you may be, I will always decide what I think is better. Its my own decision and even if the reasons why I chose it isn't as reasonable enough as yours, can't you leave me alone to go along with it?

Now because of all this debating, you made things awkward and I freakin pissed at you. But then again, when its about "that", it makes all priorities and laws that everybody live by gone. Like they never existed and "that" was the one and only rule everyone follow once they got infected. Fuck you. I fuckin hate you. You might not see me for awhile because I'll be going back to an old business.

P.S. to Hana (you know who you are), I'll be doing some"hunting in UW" when I mean I'll be back to an old business. Also this post abt me hatin isn't about you, its abt another person. So just wanted you to know I'll be huntin thats all. If you receive any calls or any see any strangers that might have business with you, hide or run or avoid kay? Especially blond ones.

Its weird (expressin!!)

Its this how people feel in hospitals? I feel like a dying specimen. Wires and fluid tubes inject to my bare skin. I can barely breath yet I am? A nurse with her beautiful red hair bun appear. I could hear her asking whether I could you hear her but its as if her voice was far far away even though she just an inch away from me. I want to answer her but even though my mouth is open, my voice won't come out.

"Okay lets check your results today" she says as she observes the machines of screens. I close my eyes back realizing I'm in a hopeless state. I don't remember anything. Except a car. Yes it was chasing me for some reason. Thats all though. Urgh my head hurts. A click sound of a door open and I open my eyes again. Who is it this time?

"Ah its you again, she finally woke up." the nurse smiles. Who is she smiling at. I turn my eyes and there stood someone I couldn't recognize. He hair was blonde and he had dashing brown eyes.

"Oh you brought your son today?" the nurse smile as she still scribbles something on some papers she had. "Ah has she really? Look Daniel, she'll be living with us for awhile."

Who is this? Who this little blond blue-eyed boy he just shove beside me?

"She the daughter of a close friend of mine so be sure to get along with her okay Daniel? Her name is.....Wait is there is something wrong Nurse?" he suddenly said panic at the machines around beeped loudly at a fast paced. Urgh. What this pain surging through my wrist? It hurts. It hurts so much...But what was my name? I can't remember.

"Oh no, could you please go outside sir..."

What? No. Don't go. I want to hear what he was about to say..

"Doctor hurry!!"

"Quick get the ingejti...."

I could hear people talking but there words started to sound gibberish and soon they fade and disappear.

Quotes (some not by me)

"You cannot steal, lie or cheat on me but if you must steal, then steal away my sorrows and if you must lie, lie to those that want to separate us and if you must cheat, then cheat on death for I couldn't live a day without you"



"Love all,
Trust a few,
Do wrong to none."



"I freakin love this
oh so tragic,
sometimes almost magic,
cruel beautiful life."



"Perfect is boring.
Human is beautiful."

Above all,

Before I go to Penang for the holidays! I must send my condolences and blessing to Japan. The quake was huge and23 people died and important precious places were destroyed. It effecting throughout Asia and although some people say it might hit here, I REALLY hope not.

This is the most obvious time to put asides our petty disagreements and pray. Praying that no one will get effected by this horrible occurrence. If you're reading this, just stop for a moment and give a prayer to those that really needs it.

The arts

I actually shouldn't be posting at all. I should be studying but I just HAD to do this post. So enjoy.

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Art is a creative image or solid object that is in form of great beauty and is the pinnacle of artists inspiration. That includes all types of artist. Artist of the literature (something I aspire to become), Artist of Music, Artist of Dance, Artist of Fashion, even Artist of Manga. These great arts had started from the medieval times, like Picasso and Van Gogh. It is because of these great people that Art have formed into several forms for all types of people to enjoy or to have a talent or a passion on. I once went into a church. Its one of the beautiful cathedrals that is important to treasure. I thought it would be scary or boring but it was the only time that I ever truly felt like to cry, simply of the art. It apparently was a church that was recreated from scraps and pieces from the original. The grey shine of the marble floors that reflects the beautiful colorful light. The beautiful canvas of the windows. The tower of little stone statues of saints towering each other and in the center of it all is a beautiful shiny gold cross.

Okay enough about prehistoric art. Like talk about the modern arts. Manga. I have to admit I'm a total romance manga addict. Its somewhat still art. Even perfect anime drawings of character acting or cosplaying, the storyline moves them. Gives them a "soul" that just attracts you.

I hate people who doesn't appreciate any of the arts. You can't say its just pretty. That so stereotypical. If I see anyone saying any of the forms of art is lame, I would gladly do an essay about it. A 10 pages essay even!!Fashion obviously prove itself to be an international concept. High fashion, Vintage and Fashion Art too. Manga has also prove to be a successful career. Go to any free online manga and you'll definently fine tons of links!! Coming from a manga like myself, I find manga is just a a good of career for they are some mangas that made its way to even become to a TV show!

So please, out of the respects of what Art does to people today, at least appreciate it and not disrespect people who loves it. Art follows are feeling and artistic people have feelings too.

Dedicated to Fran

Art is NOT LAME.