Updates!

I've just came back from Miri last night and I have to admit that the trip was more fun than my expectations. I'd barely had time for shopping and only manage to spend on one lil trinket. The Engagement party was crazy. Especially my side of the family, they just kept on drinking and dancing and stuff. While the bride's side of the family were just a bit jolly but they so did not party hard like my side did. Though they were some that were drunk along with my aunts that proves to men than women can hell yeah drink. Heck, they were some that were so drunk that even offer me, an underaged 14 year old girl, a beer or wine. I had to hold a laugh rejecting their offer. The trip here to Miri were okay but the trip to go home was filled with laughter as me and my cousie joked around without stopping. So yeah, plus I've got two new dresses and flats. Woohoo! So now I'm free and I miss my friends and would love for a hangout?

Sensibility

Okay after listening and watching too many love song vids and talking to my love strucked friend a moment ago, I've feel like ice-cream and I'm melting. Like when you see some thing Aww~~ and it get more Aww~~ and you feel all mushy and stuff. Its not a bad feeling. You need this vulnerability so it shows how much of a human you are. Just don't show it to the wrong people. Like as a teen, you learn that you have to go through this "I like you" phase with someone and the more that relationship grows, you'll realize your heart is in that "I love you" phase and that when you're serious with this person. You might get rejected but you can't give up on love just because of that one rejection. Life is way too short to give up on love just because of a rejection because when you do find the ONE, all those rejections were just tiny phases of your life that you had to go through to meet that person. And sometimes it doesn't turn out the way we THINK it would, so we just gotta accept it and we grow. Its harder when you actually DO experience it but it just gets better from there. Now I shall sink into lovely bliss and go back to my love songs. May the Goddess Aphrodite bless you reader!

my thinking today

I'm still harry potter crazy and have been looking at jokes on Voldermort. BWAHAHAHA

My Fav joke is this one hahahahaha

If I were spiderman, I follow them to hogwart. hehe
Gosh After such a long time no interenet, I have loads of email like this pic here ==
Thought when Exam finish I was like so casual and singing, but inside I'm like this dude :D

Romeo and Juliet?

Calculate to be 15,000 years old and found like this in a embrace. Does not know of the couple's story but ironically found in Italy, where Shakespeare is said to have written where Romeo and Juliet live. Proof that they're is hope in the sentence "Love lasts."

I smiled non-stop when I saw this :)

Pissed

..and you know who you are! If you're going to be a walking public toilet and STD carrier bitch around my friends just because of me, I will make sure all hell broke lose on you. I will take out all your fears and mistakes that you think I don't know out to the public of your so called "peasants" and will make sure that your very existence will be nothing more than a leech with no meaning on this earth for a whole 2 weeks. So if I hear you talking smack at my friend again, I will drag you down to a bitch fight and literally make you understand the force of gravity. Your face will be kissing the floor, the walls and the dirt on my shoe. So you have two choices:

1. Slander my friend and you will get physically whoop ass

2. Actually fight face to face with me using verbal insults instead at my friend.

I believe we have come to an understanding no?

Updates~~

Exams are OVER! I shall now sink myself into my freedom again~ BWAHAHAHAHA Oh how I miss the sound of my finger typing hours away on the keyboard and my PC that greets me like an old friend. So yeah I've been going through intense hell for the pass 5 days? And now I'm back with things to do. A friend of mine birthday is coming in October and me and some friends decided to do a SURPRISE present. So I have that to do and I also have to go to my Leo Installation. If anyone of you are interested in coming to this formal but fun event, comment on this post and I'll give you the info!

I have to go to some engagement party next week for a couple of days and I am less than excited about it cause the drive to Miri is terribly horrid plus I hate sitting in a car for hours. I'm not sure what universal force is doing this but lately a lot of people been calling me for advices or smsing me or even emailing me. Its like suddenly problems starting hitting everyone and they come for me. I am taken aback by some of they're problems though surprisingly they are about love problems so I've been really pump up.

Surprisingly I know two girls who asks me the same question only they're both in a different situation "How to not fall for a guy?". Obviously I was shock and smiling at the same time but mostly shock. There are two type of feelings, the good ones and the bad ones. Ironically, you can only control your bad feeling but never the good feelings. You got to except the good feelings naturally and transform or forget the bad ones y'know? A question to keep you guys wondering: Are your actions just as true as your feelings?

Speaking of love, I shall work on me story now~ Answer the question in the comments~

Tribute to my APR and ASR!

To my FAV online novel, A Proscriptive Relationship!! and its sequel A Surreptitious Relationship! Love it forever!!

Me and my Idiotic mouth

Urgh! Why of all time must I've give an attitude. To my MUM nonetheless!! You see she was talking about something sensitive and try to be casual about it, I slip something wrong and now she pissed at me. Moreover, after that she tried y'know verbally stabbing me and I sat quietly accepting as my repentance and fucking talk back at her. Not it a mean way but only she went on about how me and my other two brother's never once please her like she does with us.

I accept me and maybe my second older brother but the eldest? NO! He loves Mum way more than Melvin and I do. How could she not realize her FIRST son never please her? I couldn't stand back and let her take that as entirely true. Cause its NOT entirely true. Douglas (my eldest bro) loves her whenever he cans. He gives way more chances to my Mum whether or not she wants something or not than me and Melvin. He makes phone calls when he can during weekends and whenever he talks to me, I always tell him about Mum cuz even if I didn't, he would still ask about her before ending any conversation with me. He is a son that Mum should be very please to have. She can think me the worst ungrateful little child if she wants but not Douglas. He doesn't deserve that thought. But anyway, it seem karma got back at me by cutting my finger accidentally. Stupid paper cut.

Updates~~!!

I've been trying so hard not to click the log in button but I can't! I must write and paper couldn't help much. So here what happening. I have exams on the 23rd this month (HELL NO!!!). So not only I have been studying, I've been online tuition, head banging, randomly saying no logical facts, dancing when no ones looking, reading novels, writing stories and emailing like I've never done before. This month is hectic and I've been having twice the interesting events than I normally expected. I am also a very angry person cause of EXAMS *dun dun dunnnn* so I switch to hyper mode or cranky mode. I'm so lag that when my pencil falls, I curse at it, ignore it for 5 seconds and pick it up while begging for forgiveness. And since my other friends are laaggg too, I spill all my issues to TV. Like I talk to it while watching MTV. TV understands me :)

Even my Mum is like giving more space than she usually does. Like when I'm studying, she peeks for awhile to make sure I'm alright and asks me if I want anything like cakes or whatever. Now when I go in the car after school, she avoids the "how's your day" conversation and just let the radio do all the soothing and talking. Plus I can get really pissed off easily too. Like two days ago, my cousins were having a convo and they're both girls so I was just playing the Wii listening at the same time.

Cousin1: You're so pretty. I would like die for your hair.

Cousin2: No but you have nice eyes without a single eyebag in them.

Cousin1: But you're slender. I'm fat.

Cousin2: No! I'm pretty fat myself.

Cousin1: You're WAY skinnier than me.

Cousin2: You're more thinner than me.

* me pausing the game and both look at me *

Me: For fuck sake, just accept the damn compliment GOSH!

* continues playing while cousins go to another room going

Cousin2: Whats up with her?

Cousin1:Exams are coming.

Cousin2: Now it all makes sense.

I know its just my third time this year having exams but the thing is its as much important last one only instead of holding the most marks like the last one, its because I have a LOT, I repeat a LOT, at stake on this exam. I'm also very thankful for my 12 year old me for not getting rid of my teddy bears. They're lovely as a punch bag. A week after my exams, I will be going to Miri to attend my cousin's engagement party and hopefully my bro and his girlfriend will come. I miss my bros so much and I always hope for them to come back home if they is any possibility. Its summer as you and I know and its terribly hot. So very very hot. I have 45oML of Ice Cream and 4 popsicles to survive each week! At least I can beat mood swings with them other than heat.

So to anyone who knows me, do not bother trying to calm me down for I've already state here my situation. YOU'VE BEEN WARNED!! If you still don't get it, I'll let my iconic nicki mnaj here put it in a way basic way you can understand.