To Lonelyness

If I were in your situation, I take my time to move on. Just take it slow and totally think about what you need to do. I said need, not want. If you keep over-thinking the same thing, you won't be able to let go and move on. If you have gave your every fiber and energy to stop thinking about it and it still didn't stop say for about a month from now, than its definitely a sure sign that you can't ignore it. Sometimes you have to give yourself the solitude you need from times like that to know whether by doing so, you can move on. Only then you can choose to approach it by action after giving other concepts of your life for you to concentrate on a chance.


Usually giving myself time as well as concentrating on others have always assist my brain and especially heart to let go in order to go to the final stage which is moving on. So I have never had the need to solve thing by questioning myself what action to take. If I had to resort to that last attempt, I let that attempt take me while completely forgetting fear and all that insecurity. I would just do anything in my power to satisfy the restlessness that you've obviously have got bitten by but to how badly you got bit by it? I still can't quite say except for maybe it must have been quite the big chow. 


I'm just stating you the options you can take before concluding the situation you're in is hazardous. This is just what I would do in your situation and if you want to give it a go, you better commit to it. Plus there are other options out there than could be way more effective depending on you than the ones I am so considerably typing. 


That is everything I needed to say and now that I have fulfill my best friend adviser duties, I must now tend to my fuming mother who is stressed from all the wedding changes my brother just drop on her. Hope you get your act figure out!

To Life

I couldn't post since I have more than a couple sentence to reply to your post. Its only my perspective so you may or may not heed to it. To me I quite like being alone as it is because of the above picture that is my reason that I like it. Me and Oscar Wilde have loads of stuff in common since I am in love with his quotes and poems. 

Sometimes when you alone, untouched by the world outside your room's door or in your internet, in the silence you "hear", "see" and "think" of other stuff you wouldn't normally think like about a habit you never knew of doing, a task you long forgot to do despite promising yourself you remember it or in this case, reflecting on the stuff that have happen and how you react to it. I've been seeing joy that isn't apply to me but to others around me to which I'll explain more in detail on the next post after this. I'm in a family issue and after giving myself some time to forget about it for a moment, I see the good. Like yesterday I saw a full bow of rainbow after this huge rain and it was a happy symbol that kept reminding me the bad and good always will pass. So if you're going through lonely times, don't let it affect you to being pessimist. If you let a worse situation effect you and you start acting to it, it'll just might be even more worse. 

Maybe you're meant to be left alone for awhile to get yourself straight. If people left you to be alone, let them and you just keep carrying yourself and dance through it. Dwell yourself in things that you enjoy doing and once you're happy with yourself or be rid of that pessimistic demur, people will be attracted to your happy aura. It all starts with you and you can change that. However if people want some space, let them choose to be. You say you might be over-thinking it, than you should lower that par to it. 

I've recently learn you can't over analyze things but you can't be too ignorant too. Sometimes you gotta let Life surprise you and if you hate what you get, change it. You're capable of doing so in numerous ways possible. If you want people's attention, obviously you need to catch their attention through a charismatic "you". Take charge of a conversation. Be in the spotlight while still being you. People will want to talk to you. That is if you're sure you don't want to alone for a bit more.

You can just accept it and concentrate on other things, studies or activities. As Kelly CLarkson sings "Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone" in her "Stronger" song which can have a positive meaning other than in a relationship. Just because you're alone, don't feel you're lonely because you've got other things you can be involved and if you give your all into it, you'll barely feel lonely or maybe even if your friends start talking again to you. In any situation, crappy or happy, you can choose to say "It sucks" or "It's not that bad" depending on how you react and do about it. So hope you get what I mean and  find the solution to your problem. If you choose to see it as a problem anyway. Byes~

Expecting the unexpected

I've had been doing just that. I've been pretty much just living my life as good as I can as well as not being so "careful" with life unnecessarily. I just let Life hit me with whatever it got and totally just let myself dwell in it. Be it bad or good. Lately and mostly the bad stuff have been happening as well some good ones too. I might face with my family issues that I am already mentally preparing myself for. I've also got people asking for my advice a lot. Like a LOT. You have no idea how gratifying it is when you've been ask for consultation and answers to complicated situations you may or may not have experience so many many times for the past few weeks like you were the guru of it. I'm stoked shock. 

I also have tomorrow's cross-country to go about and frankly I doubt I'll finish 7.5 km. I never had for the past 2 years but since my Aunt is practically making breakfast a must, who knows about this year.

I'll be also having mock exams at the last week of July and I don't think enough however, I am going to try to pull through. I'm still worried to sick about it.

My school has been trying to make us embody the "7 habit of highly effective teens" by Sean Covey to us. At first it was annoying with all the proactive word being used in our ears every single 5 days of the week but I think some of us figure that it was actually NEEDED to know about it so I'm okay with it. And they want us to go for a seminar for it so we're doing a fund raiser bazaar since its fairly expensive for the seminar. I'm in charge of drinks and I'm so worried at how things turn out since my Mum is only coming back like 4 days before the bazaar and I need to get loads of stuff ready.I hope business will do well. I really do.By the way ANIKO!! I'm selling RM30 worth of coupons for the bazaar!! Its on 15th July Sunday from 9am to 2pm so buy please!!! Our class also has a game stall which I promise has awesome fun to go for!! So call me kay. I've got no credit to reply text or call back! 

I've also seen stuff I haven't seen in awhile and I'm not reacting to it since it doesn't involve me. I've also learn to built tolerance and accept shame. Now I need to learn to beat my procrastinating persona for at least months. I've seen some pretty ugly moments and some not so happy ones but I've also seen some pretty precious lessons that I need to remember again so I'm quite okay.

I've been playing a couple harvest moon games. One is Grand Bazaar and the other is Rune Factory 3. Their really good games and have been my only source of entertainment. So thats about it I think. I also am loving Katy Perry's "Wide Awake" and "Touch" by Natasha Bedingfield. Something I would suggest to all you readers to hook up your headphones to.