I do and I've feel much more confident to admit that. Call it what you may, but I believe everything that happens to us, whether we choose it or it was some ironic accident, is suppose to happen. Like how I'm supposed to go through the most worse though technically productive student formation seminar. Although its much more boring compared to last years and I can't say I didn't hate it the whole time but at the same time I didn't quite as complain. I put myself in people's shoes and thinking about it, I start to be a bit more enthusiastic. Negative influences are coming back again but I think I made the best out of my time today. I truly believe so and y'all can roll your eyes and scoff at me for it cuz I know you didn't do what I did so I ain't hating. Sometimes things sucks and if you want you can briefly shout that fact out but then you can lessen the reality of the fact if you just make your best. I know have a new found respect for people who knows that did something wrong but does it repeatedly anyway, just a teensy bit. I thank them for reminding me not to be them, reminding me the resolutions I made to myself. So thanks a hell lot. You improve me. Keep it up.
I'm also writing this because I learned that people can look at you judgmentally and sometimes we tell them to stop being such a stereotype. After what I learned today, instead of telling them to shut up and to stop from telling me what I can't do or telling me whats wrong or right or I'm ridiculous, I rather turn around and look them straight in the eyes to say "watch me."
I believe that all the hurt we gone through makes us what we are today. You don't remember the past that hurt you but what it taught you. I'm a bit more confident with myself and although it was boring, it didn't mean I've never smiled in the whole seminar. I had a few laughs too so it wasn't that bad. Lately I've been cold towards the fossos I said before this post. I am a very sensitive person towards matters that evolves in my life. Especially ones that really makes me want to say something REAL cruel. Like as if you just slightly nudge me, I would scream out all these really horrible thoughts of you. GAH~ At this rate, that might actually happen.
I also know that we meet the people we choose to hang but we don't control our actions once we care about them. Once they became a big part of your life. We lost ourselves once they become that important and then thats when things goes to where meant to be and sooner or later, we accept it and pursue it and eventually we find our purpose and joy. We find how we benefit in this world instead of indulging ourselves. Thinking about it, its sort of really cool huh?
My advice, NEVER let what others slander about you be true. Smile at your haters and laugh at them when you succeed. Don't be humble on your capabilities but hunger to improve them. Consider other's situations as well cause you may not understand them but should chooses not to influence bad vibes at them. After all, like a nice quote says. "We are all playing the same game, just in different levels. We are all walking through the same hell, just dealing with different devils." Might keep that in mind.
Thats latin for "Ignorant Fool" and I would like to talk about one and you know what? I'm talking about this fool because he ruined my day. I've just came back from having a good day at the mall with my friends and later I hear that something happen because of this fool. You see this fool decided to "take" what isn't his even if he has a relation to that person and decided to do this crime because he wanted to follow the benefits that his peers had made him to believe. Not at all afraid just if the fool might be trick and lose his money. Why? Because he's a fool. A fool is always a fool in nature. No matter what.
And the person the fool is stealing from decided to remain quite. This person shall be called silent storm since it sound appropriate for this person's personality. So anyway, silent storm decided not to bother argue since the fool actually scream in demand and anger for silent storm to just give in as they were talking through the phone. Silent storm decided not to quarrel with fool as silent storm knows it would be extremely futile after being yelled at. However silent storm made promise to defend another type of object that was achieve through silent storm's father's money and that silent storm would not give that one item to fool no matter what.
I'm in between and I am half pissed because the fool got me my all time favorite garlic bread which butter up some of my anger. GAH! Why am I so weak at the wrong time? Anyway, the fool acts like I don't know a thing about what recent horrible act the fool did but I know and I somehow didn't even convey that when I talk to the fool. How can someone so foolish still roam around in this modern world? I don't know why we keep fawning over things that are worthless. I don't get why the fool pretend to be blinded and still walks on its own stupid path. I sure hope no one becomes like him because then I bet they wouldn't be happy. Ever.
My friends are sometimes like that picture above, we're either the silly crazy one or the straight logic one that handles each other as a duo. (Which is why sometimes I think we make a good comedy duo hehe) We're all VERY different individuals and most of the time we learn from each other form our different views and interest but there are times where we aren't so open-minded and hurt each other. Of course we still apologize in then and continue to understand. Sometimes I think I'm the most luckiest girl on the whole wide world to have such incredibly awesome friends.
Plus what's a friend if they can't even do one stupid thing with you? Truth be told, thinking about it, we do sometimes act real dumb but in some sense I have that as a way of telling each other that they don't mind going on an adventure with you. So this is a sort a post of how much I really appreciate all the times you guys help me out, listen to my crazy babbling and teaching new things that I've never imagined nor bother to even have interest in.
P.S. Quality green stuff are a bit hard to find... Especially if I have a more further specification for it Gah!!
I know right? What with the french? Haha.Exam is over bwahahahahaha. Cut. Anyway I hope to spend my week holiday a bit more productively than the last ones. I have this English Oral to do and must plan a meet-up with my close friends in Suria. I've also plan up for something I have NOT told anyone because its actually a surprise from ONE of my close friends this month. Thats right so if you're reading this, might want to bring your guard up if you HATE surprises. I can assure you its a surprise any of you approve of but that as far as the details I'll go.
I'm feeling pleasant and just for your information my 2 month plus manga sober ends here so this week of my holidays I'm spoiling myself rotten with mangas and will start sobering up when my school reopens again. I actually miss a lot but I'm not so crazily determined to read finish every single manga and actually stop reading some after knowing I lost interest in them. So I'm not gonna spend time mostly on the Net as you think I will but be doing more TV watching, jogging and trying to revive my old afternoon tea time chattings and unfortunately my cousins so happens to be busy around this week thus making my tea time just tea rather than chat so..Hello my dear friends, I cordially invite you for tea. Sms me if you're free and interested to plan ahead. When I say tea time, I literally mean a pot of tea ( I've got green tea, english breakfast tea, earl grey tea and other stuff too.) and some few sweet tid-bits as we chat and maybe play the wii to not feel overly lazy. But seriously, sms me if you're free! If not, I'll find comfort through novels that have yet to be read by me!
So to all that also is planning to have one heck of time for their week school holiday, hope you have an awesome week! Byes~
