These days while I was feeling goth because of how I feel my life's been ruin because of my haircut well not really anyway and also because of my sickly condition. A few days back, I was reading this book called "Evermore" by Alyson Noel. I love reading books like that because when I read it, I can feel this nostalgic feeling. Lets say I been trying to feel that nostalgia feeling but reading the book again won't help.
At the moment I am listening this song called "Lacrimosa". I knew this song because it was the closing theme song for this kinda gothic anime called "Kuroshitsuji". Hearing it now makes me feel a bit nostalgic, yet it also gave the expression beautiful but also evil. The song is in japanese. So I'll post the japanese and english lyric later. I feel much better hearing this song because I can have that feeling again. I though know why I am attracted to this feeling.
Anyway, my headache and the pain in my chest had stop! I feel much better but I still cough terribly. Oh and just now I was putting my uniform into the laundry machine. I thought I would hesitate but no. Instead I take them out and stuff them into the laundry machine. Thinking about it now kinda make me scared again about first day of school but because I'm listening to "Lacrimosa", I can sweep that feeling away and replace it with nostalgia. Well that about it but I think they'll be a continuation of thought 3#. Who knows? So here is the lyric of said I'll post.
++++++++Japanese Lyrics++++++++
Kurayami no naka de mutsumiau
Zetsubou to mirai o
Kanashimi o abaku tsukiakari
Tsumetaku terashiteta
Kimi no kureta himitsu o shirube ni
Aoi yoru no shizukesa o yuku
Lacrimosa
Tooku kudakete kieta
Mabushii sekai o mou ichido aishitai
Hitomi no naka ni yume o kakushite
Yogoreta kokoro ni
Namida ga ochite kuru made
Maboroshi no basha wa yami o wake
Hikari no aru hou e
Yume to iu wana ga boku tachi o
Homura e izanau
Sora no ue no mujihi na kamigami ni wa
Donna sakebi mo todoki wa shinai
Lacrimosa
Bokura wa moesakaru takigi to nari
Itsuka sono sora o yakitsukusou
Lacrimosa
Koko ni umarete ochita
Chinureta sekai o osorezu ni aishitai
Yurusareru yori yurushi shinjite
Yogoreta chijou de
Namida no hibi o kazoete
++++++++English Lyrics++++++++
The moonlight, which exposes sadness
Coldly illuminated
Despair and the future
That are friendly with each other within the darkness
Turning the secret that you gave me into a sign
I go through the silence of the pale night
Lacrimosa
Once more, I want to love the glaringly bright world
That shattered in the distance and vanished
Hide your dream in your eyes
Until tears come falling
Onto your sullied heart
The phantom carriage parts the darkness
And goes toward where the light is
The trap known as dreams
Lures us toward the flames
No shout of any sort will reach
The merciless gods above the sky
Lacrimosa
Well be the blazing firewood
And seem to burn away the sky someday
Lacrimosa
I want to fearlessly love the blood-soaked world
That I was born in
Rather than being forgiven, forgive and believe in me
Count the number of lachrymose days
On the sullied earth.
