New Years Eve!

Today is the last day of 2011 and I'm going to stay almost all night to see fireworks and make  wish for 2012. I can't believe times passes by so fast. It feel exceptionally fast this year yet at the same time I've been through a lot. I guess this year could be label as my most dramatic year and I'm hoping new year would be my like my golden year in 2009 only better. I don't want petty dramas that aren't worth it and I wish to study a hell of a lot and be a better person both physically,mentally and emotionally. I want to do some pretty crazy but fun stuff with my friends more and that a lot to ask for yeah but really all I ask for 2012 is to be better than any of the other years. So I wish the best for everyone including my enemies, my friends, my families that they may have the best 2012. 2012 is said to be the year of the end, the next Olympics in London and my PMR year and that a LOT going on and hopefully it'll turn out for the best. Happy New Years Eve guys and thanks for coming to read this blog for 2011 and hope you'll do the same for 2012! Love you all!!


P.S. may I suggest listening to "What Are You Doing New Years Eve" by Zooey Deschanel and Joseph Gordon-Levitt in youtube. Its just classic lovely. 

"Maybe its much too early in the game

Ah, but I thought I'd ask you just the same

What are you doing New Year's

New Year's Eve?"

Last Hangout of 2011

Went to Suria to hang and I felt that it a way this hangout was a bit different than the usual. We weren't as hyper as we always were and yet we had fun as we hit a few ironic mishaps and I can't say I didn't particularly hear anything but neither will I do anything about it. Its time to leave my heart to God and see what he does with it, come what may come, good or bad or even painful, they would be something happy in there and things to learn and grow from. However I did had a fairly good fun that still lingers on my skin like that memory has not left me yet. 


For example, I had been between two of my friends arguments. My friend pass by me like more than 3 times as we were watching a movie. I've miss a movie even though I bought the ticket (yeah I know waste of money but I'm not regretting it honestly). I bought a few stationary (*snorts* AHA I'm a geek ahahaha). I found out my friend got the Instax Cam I longed for and forgotten (The little- I mean good for her). I laugh and stop a series of cursing between a male and female friend in pizza hut (you gotta love these two despite they're ANNOYING bickering may I emphasize). My phone was called small...sniff. I won a fighting game at the Arcade for only one time. My bag was complimented (Nice one err bag?). Freaked out when my friend joked about going to hump a massage chair after to which I joked about reminding her for being complimented on it (LMAO XD)


Oh and to end this as nicely as I can, to Chan Yng (yes I'm saying your real name) GROW THE HELL UP! Stop being such a crybaby and hypocrite in denial just for some space away from a dude who isn't even invading your personal space. If you tell me you're not like a baby, then why couldn't you say "Hi" to show that you were over with it? Why are your legs running from something you know its over?Thats something you didn't think asking yourself why you did right? If you ask me, thats REAL illogical and to think you were being smooth and happy about not seeing him again. Well my dear its LIFE, not everything is certain and if you ask me, him appearing is Karma's way of reminding you, so suck it up and stop claiming something about the future before it hits you again ten time worse.


I hope you lovely readers have nice days and leave a good honest comment :) Bye!

Christmas and my future

I know its late and I already did my greeting but I haven't told you what I did for Christmas right? Well I went to church with my wonderful new lace dress and it was nice to just see the little stable my church made where laid statues of a Shepherd, Mother Mary, Joseph, and of course little baby Jesus and I donated RM50 to the Church. I remember how every year I get excited to see the baby Jesus they put in the church and standing in front of it this year, I didn't get the same feeling. I felt nostalgic as if I haven't seen if for years and it was then I felt overwhelm by it too. Overwhelmed by a statue that stare up as if knowing the greater things out there that visible to only its eyes alone.

Later that evening I went home and relaxed around with my bro till we had to go dinner with my cousins and her family. Everyone was having fun and I can't say I was involve in it a whole lot because I was busy realizing something. On the table we all sat, I look at my brother. He was trying to earn enough money to get a degree and hopefully getting a higher paid job so he can travel the world more and have fun with life. Heck he's even counting all our financial budget within 20 years for now. He's planning the hopeful future he wants. Then I look next to him, my cousin, Geraint, who is couple years older than my brother. He was gonna get married next year. Engaged this year to a beautiful girl from a different type of Kadazan family. He also plans to maybe work back in Germany again or find a nice job in KL where he can live with his lover. On the next is my Uncle and Aunt. Uncle did odd jobs that requires the skills of a villager and it was pretty much all he spent his days as he watches his kids grow. Happy and knowingly peaceful at the sight of his children. A feeling I've never understand till I'm a parent. My Aunt still works as a clerk. She travels here and there as well as doing the mothering with her yound adult daughter/ my cousin, Samantha. She seem awfully happy and at peace too. Enjoying the pace of her life as she watches her children "moving" on they're on with her husband. Then it was Samantha. She is almost finishing her course in Culinary school and she probably might go to University to learn to be a stewardess for an airport. Her desire to experience life and culture to discover herself are enviable and I wish I could be experiencing it with her. Then there was my parent. My beautiful, strong and charming mother who is retired, is simply is trying to find old friends to chat her golden days as well as finding hobbies to spend her time as all she does is send me to school and watch me grow. She pays for my education that I not always appreciate and she has the eyes of expecting her ending all to which I fear so much that I cry at the mere thought of it. She too is trying to experience life in general by travelling. My Dad who gives me allowance and spending waffles of cash on expensive medicines that I'm not even sure is worth it. Still lost in his own maze of old fashion tradition, having yet to find the meaning of life and knowing that he thought might someday greet death, he would not feel happiness at the very last breath saddens me heavily.

Then there is me. The me that is gonna turn fifteen years old within 4 months from now. The me that will have to pick what stream she has to go for and give up a lot of teenage pleasures in order to accept the beauty and reality of life and to capture my dreams. The me that has to grow up and get out there. Truth be told, the me that shops, plays and jokes around are just my way of enjoying life as well as rejecting it at the same time. I need to get out there now. I need to abandon my childish self for some time and to get out there. Out in the world that I suddenly feel like knowing more of and it starts now. I'm fed up of this now. I'm tired and its time to find something worth more doing and do only way to abandon the stuff that aren't no more worth to do and do something better is that I need to help myself. I can't expect someone to do things for me anymore. I gotta do it on my own from here on out. I have to be my own hero. If you notice I made the bolded words pop more to show what each person is doing in they're lives. Some are spending whats ever left of it. Other are planning to do what they want with the amount of time they still have left and it would be great if you guys commented what YOU want to do in Life. 

2012 Resolutions

I know, its still 5 days till the end of 2011 but I don't want to forget them so I decided to post here for all you spectators to see so in future if I do break it, you rub it in my face and bring me back to reality. So here they are.


1.Go to computer REALLY less. It would be great if I can minimize the internet usage to the point where I only use it for projects ONLY.


2.Shop less. I wanna to tame my shopping ways STRICT.


3.Study more than I ever did for UPSR so I can do great in PMR


4. Get at LEAST 3 A's in PMR or more


5.Have a stronger will power and heart


6.Grow up more. Both physically (ah my height...) and mentally.


7. Do good more and bad less.


8. Go jogging more!!! (this is a must +.+)


9. Get a position in a club or whatever in school. 


10. Join more english related competitions!!


11. Kill my laziness and vanity.


12. Be less selfish and more caring and considerate.


13. Have more confidence in myself and have great courage.


14. Be more organized and neat (i'm usually having war with my txtbooks so yea...)


15. Curse less. (A very difficult habit to be ridden of...)


Since I'm turning 15 years old next year, I'm doing a lot with 15 goals!!! And Carpe Diem means "Seize the day!" in Latin and it means to put a bit of hope for the unpredictable future and concentrating your all on the present. Its inspirational isn't it? Might be my first tattoo. So 2012, lets try not to mess it this time kay? What about you guys? Got any top priority resolutions? Comment please! 

Updates

Been a long time for them. I'm writing this around 11 am in the morning when I woke up an hour ago. I'm in some old gingham skirt  that I thought I would never wear again and my hair looks like its been partying but really I haven't been as well as wearing a real boss looking red jeweled ribbon ring on my finger just for the random modesty of feeling rich. Hell yeah. My brunch is a sandwich thats no longer warm and I hate chewing into cold bread but I didn't want the cold noodles since that might have taste much worse. I'm listening to Hangover by Taio Cruz ft. Flo Rida. Not exactly your good morning song  but I'm in the mood for it even though I barely did anything related to alcohol last night. Odd right? 


Today we're planning to get my beautiful mother her bouquet of flowers and cakes since we barely had time for it last night. I bought a new floral navy blue lace dress last night and a new metal skateboard necklace with a prayer on it. Next year I'm gonna try to be less selfish and tame my shopaholic to only necessarily things. I'm gonna stick to some graphic shirt and jean and denim for most of the time next year. However I need to learn to wear skirt and dresses to church, as much as I know I can wear casual to church but my Mum been telling me it would be more respectable to wear a dress in God's house and that is enough for me to consider and feel guilty about it.


I got school to get ready for. Horrible I know but I'm trying to mentally myself a positive pet talk about it and hopefully it'll come very effective when my  school actually starts. Well that it for now, anything happening to you guys? Comment pwease!

Happy Birthday Mum!

Today is my wonderful, charming and awesome Mum's birthday! I already bought her present back in HK, which is Anna Sui's new perfume, "Forbidden Affair" (I love love LOVE the name. Its just so tempting when you hear it.). She is turning 57 this year and we're all gonna celebrate it in what used to be "New York New York" in 1Borneo to know called "Brooklyn" but thankfully has the same mouth watering menu. My bro and I also plan to get a beautiful bouquet of flowers and Secret Recipe's Mango Cake. This post dedicates to my Mum and I hope you live long enough to see me what I make do with my life in the future! 


I also wish that you be by my side as long as you can. God bless you and again, I LOVE YOU MUM!!

Till this day

I can't say I've never had a taste of freedom. I can't say I've never tried spreading wings and fly. I can't say that I never touch the sky. I can say that I did all those things for only a fleeting moment. You do fly sometimes but you always have to go down. Then when you do touch the earth's soil again, you are meet up with obstacles that makes flying harder to do but the more you surpass all these, the higher you fly. However freedom ain't always beautiful. You need to remember to have a grip on things that really matter but nowadays, there are getting less people who abuses they're new found freedom and there are more people who are afraid to fly.

We are a afraid of what lies beyond the skies, hidden behinds those clouds. We are afraid that our wings will be shot down and we can't get up but sometimes in my opinion, I need to be free from chains and just let loose. Trying to not have regrets and raise up from all my fears and sorrows. I do have wings of my own and I mean it metaphorically of course but yeah. There are times when I just didn't care a thing and let loose my hair and put my party dress on. They are times when I do something totally uncalled for but I didn't want to pass good opportunities that would leave me with regrets in the end. No matter how bad you fall, you can get up "for strength isn't something physical, it is an unwavering willpower that gives us real strength."We need to (like my new blog background) live beautifully (and I mean being honest, nice and doing mean things less), dream passionately (go over the limits for what you want, if they're is beauty within your dream, then go all the way for it! Don't let anyone make you doubt for a second that you can't!) and love completely (Try to forgive and forget. It just shows you are stronger and over with it. Try doing less wrong to those you cherish too!).When we do fly and give it our all, we'll make some pretty ugly mistakes but then we'll make pretty awesome decisions just the same right? To explain freedom in a more musical way, I strongly recommend you to listen to "Hit the Lights" by Selena Gomez. It somewhat explain freedom in a sense. Try to read the lyrics too, its even way better!

P.S. I manage to be mostly good for December so far! Woot-Woot!!

Hobbycon

Its my third time going and there are a LOT more cosplayers joining this year and I'm VERY pleased at the number. Me dear close friend joined as Alice. She was pretty and for her first time, it wasn't at all bad. Not even the slightest. Heck she was ask by quite a few people for photos. I'm so happy for her. However the highlight of the event for me was when I go to my usually once a year tarot card reading. I don't believe in it entirely but I just do it for the fun of it and the guy even remembered me! So the first question I ask was how was my overall luck for next year and it was something I didn't expect. I was gonna go trough a lots of up and downs with good lucks and bad lucks in hand. According to him, I shall face emotional and physical pain. It could be back stabbing friendship or other what not but he made it clear to me that it would hurt me deeply. He did say that if I overcome the terrible hardships to come, I would go through many great awards and he mentions that I would be doing a lot of giving and charity next year. Its the hardships that I fear. I mean I'm never one to be confident in overcoming huge hurdles, just hopeful and trying my best but I feel however that it may not be enough next year. Then after a few turns, I ask another question and that is whether I can achieve my high goals as a journalist/writer with the achievements I wish to grab as I make my way to my future. He said I have the brains and people supporting me as a back up plan but I will make a some people pissed off at me on my way to my goal. These people may also cause me my down fall to which he say IF I fall, then I would fall VERY hard to the ground seeing as I am achieving REAL high. So I'm glad that I got to hear that I had skills and plans to go through it and I'm not at all that worried about pissing a few people of for I was quite aware of the consequences to come for deciding what I wanted to do, is the falling that I'm doubting. When I'm down, it takes a lot to muster the strength to get up and I'm just wondering the hell I'll go through once I do fall. Do you guy think of this stuff? Comment and let me know!

Strangely not understandable

Even in all the times that I spent my time with him, he was just simple man. However, as I grew to know things about him, he morphed into something I loathe but still love not matter what. I wanted desperately to prove what I heard wrong. For I believe in the saying that "It does not matter what that important someone did in the past, it only matter how I remember him to be now." yet even knowing him in the present, he failed to make me proud and prove everyone that what he did in his past were long gone. I was disappointed, frustrated and unwillingly sad at that hard fact. I tried to understand him but he was just undeniably stubborn and dense and stupid and I myself think thats impossible for a human to be all at the same time. He was some strange alienated douche that I've never known but despite his actions and his unwavering stubbornness to acknowledge his ways, I grasp one thing. One human trait that will always makes him just a bit human as anyone else and that is that he is a sad sad lonely man.

I knew all this man was longing for the love that people have already given up on giving to someone like him but it didn't made him any less human to not YEARN for it. He wanted the hugs, he wanted to be acknowledged in cheerful conversations, He wanted to be said "I love you" and have the feeling that he will be missed. He would sit there on his chair, just simply observing but never in the conversation, his eyes sad and pleading for someone to look at him and to not just ask him whether he's okay but to assure him that he was needed and loved. He was a man that was once loved by all at one time but because of himself, he pushed away from everything and everyone that was important. Instead he simply lives life according to what he want and as long as he does at his own will, he thinks he'll be happy but no. He can never be actually happy. Happiness and the best things were never objects no. They were the cherished people that gave us these things to us that made them important but if they were none of these people, how would that make anything we do or have for and from nothing important? How is getting better health any important when you don't have anyone to live for? How is getting better at something worth all your effort when it was meant for simply yourself and never others? And it is because of this that makes me feel great sympathy and forgiveness towards such a ridiculous, horrible, idiotic and pitiful man. Does that make me stupid? I don't know but I do know I would regret it if I didn't act like an idiot and continued to forgive him. Fudge. Tears.

Before I go HK

If anyone of you guys wanna contact me at all, leave a PM in my FB which I know you all know of. I won't answer text or emails while I'm there and just to correct the date I'm coming back once again is on the 8th Dec. So Lonelyness continue to update and don't worry I'll be able to go to Hobbycon. I'm hoping to have an early dress rehearsal on the 9th, that is if anyone one you and especially the cosplayers (Fran and Aniko) to arrange. That would be superbly awesome. But yeah keep me updated in FB. If I don't see any updates at all, prepare to suffer under the incredible annoyance of nyan cat and indirect insults.

I can get the Fujifilm Instax cam but I have to get four A's in my next exam or not my camera would be suspended from me. GAH!! But I fell in love the cam so I hate to back out from that deal. This is like a mental early torture for me on my first damn exam.So yeah and hopefully I can buy you guys some trinkets as well if I'm being money wise and Aniko!! Lets hang out at my house on the 15th? Thats okay with you? Tell me in FB!

Welcome back Coldplay and Helllloooo HK!

I haven't seen them for what like ages and now they're back with awesome songs that I admire. Especially they're song Paradise. Its aspiring and its like a getaway song from reality and a pathway to my ideal paradise or at least in my opinion. Hong Kong is just 50+hours away and I've only just started packing my shirts and tops. I'm hoping to buy Fujifilm Instax there and the most reasonable price but I need the approval of my brother since I think they know whats better and I just email them about my interest in the cam and wondered if they thought it was good. There are at least 3 most important thing I want to attain while I'm there. Fun, combat boots and that camera. If I could fulfill at least 2 out 3 of these, I am satisfied!! I hope to spend lots of time with my bros too. Like exchanging DS games, going around the roller coasters and other amusement ride, and as well as eating food together. My brothers lives at different countries and as a little sister that is like 10 years more younger than them can be tough for me emotionally. They're out at the world exploring and doing what they love as happiness with partners that makes them feel they're not alone and have someone they can rely on while I'm stuck here in high school with huge exams to worry about and has still has SO MUCH MORE to learn and experience from before becoming an adult.

Sometimes I envy people whom I know have sibling who doesn't have a huge age gap between them so they won't miss things that they both have yet to done nor do things that the other haven't. When I look at people like that arguing, I sometimes am reminded for taking granted the times when my brother were just teens themselves while I was but a kindergarten age. Though I don't regret all of that but there are some when I think that I could have been more nice to them. So I'm going to steal as many bear hugs and conversations with them as I can! I mean, you could NEVER, and I mean NEVER say enough "I love you" to those who you really miss and cherishes. Might wanna do that before 2011 ends. Oh and guess what, I think my cousies are doing a "i heart you" events for all of us. Like a small social party at a villa maybe? Something to commerate to love ones and tell them all those sappy but honest stuff that we never get to tell before December ends. I hope they're able to make it! Bye peeps! Hope you have a jolly awesome December!!

Wish List

Dear Santa,

Lets see I want Fujifilm Instax Camera. A nice white one. Some particular new romance teen fiction books. I want my own pair of black combat boots. I would also like people out there to have a nice jolly Christmas, especially people who can't afford to, people who are in war and can't be with they're families and those who never have one before. So it you could at least make that last wish come true, that would be great and awesome.

From,

me

December!

It going to be December tomorrow and its my MOST FAVORITE month of the year. I love Christmas and I love the idea of Santa Claus, presents, x'mas movies and dinner that comes in this celebration. I also like to give rather than getting since I have the urge to and I'm going to start donating! I hope you guys do something "giving" for this x'mas for its the kind of occasion where you got to put all selfishness and horrible attitudes aside and be nice no matter what. Like make something handcrafted and give it to your family relatives. Do some helping whenever you can and there is an opportunity to do so. Reflect on yourself have you been good or bad this year in an overall conclusion. I have been doing loads of bad things that are more than the ones when I'm doing good things so I'm not surprised if I'm on santa's bad list. Still it doesn't stop me from throwing my bad ways. I'm gonna do good from tomorrow onwards!! For one WHOLE month too. Watch out December! Cause here comes Miss.Nice!

I can't get over it!

I've been listening to "A Thousand Years" by Christina Perri for like literally more than 100 times and I'm still not over it!! Just love it~

Lyrics:

Heart.Beats.Fast

Colours and Promises

How to be Brave

How can I love

when I'm afraid

To fall

But watching you stand alone

All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow

One Step Closer

*Chorus:

I had died everyday waiting for you

Darling don't be afraid

**I have love youfor a thousand years

I love you for a thousand more

Time stands still

Beauty in all she is

I will be brave

I will not let anything

take away

whats standing infront of me

Every breath

Every hour

has come to this

One step closer *

And all along I believed

I would find you

Time has brought your heart to me **

One step closer 2x *

And all I believe

I would find you

Time has brought your heart to me **

Will never get tired of this song for sometime~~Its just too sweet and meaningful for me to stop listening~ Did you guys see the official lyrics vid for this? Theres like fuor distinct twilight symbol in that makes this song even sweeter <3

Funny Convos

1. Me: *starts laughing because feels giggle-ly*

Person1: *starts laughing too*

Me:*stops and gives confused look* What did you laugh for?

Person1: *stop and look embarrased* Oh I thought..Nevermind...

Me: What did you fart? Haha joking joking..

Person1: Hahahahaha...*Then realizes its a joke*

Me: Ew! Seriously? Gross!!

Person1: I thought you heard it..Hahaha

Me: OMG! Ew!! *leaving the room as soon as possible*

2.~At Pizza hut~

Chan Yng: So you've got anyone you have your eyes on?

Cristy: *looks at pizza* Yeah this pizza

Chan Yng, Cristy & me: *Laughs*

Me: Yeah he's name is pizza!

Chan Yng: Seriously bah!

Me: Fine. I'm sorry. He's full name is Pizza Pepperoni.

*All Laughs again*

3.Cristy: So I get these mirror over here and here and here and stuff

Cristy Oh Mirror mirror on the wall

Chan Yng: No they're not actually all on the wall

Me: No she mean that rhyme that goes "Mirror Mirror on the wall, Whose the fairest of them all?"

Cristy: Yeah

Chan Yng: Oh well they're not on the wall though. They're different.

Me&Cristy: *laughs internally*

Chan Yng: What? What?

Me: Nothing~

4.Dad: Hey how do I delete this?

Me: You click this to this

Dad: Oh cause its unimportant so all I have to is to put it into this file?

Me: Noo.....You click the delete button if you want to DELETE things Dad.

Dad: Oh oh OH okay I get it. Hehe

Me: Lol Dad.

5. Cristy: sry about that!!

Hafeez: its cool bro

Cristy: thanks gurl

Hafeez: lol

Me: lol hahah

I love these convos. They're just awesome. Comment please! Watchu think?

Breaking Dawn is Awesome

I LOVE BELLA'S WEDDING DRESS! Its BEAUTIFUL and all in capital letters! The drama and the suspense were totally awesome too. There is sense of satisfaction with knowing that FINALLY Edward and Bella are together and although they skip some inappropriate scenes just to keep it PG13, its still good. I keep repeating again and again in my mind and I just can't believe that it was only just part 1. I really don't want Twilight Sage to end but I'm still so very much looking forward to Part 2. I hope it'll be better than any of the other sequels before. Like the pic? Aren't they just so cute? Well I do! Till next time my readers!

Breaking Dawn!

Here I come baby! I'm gonna go to the earliest showing of the movie tomorrow with a couple of friends! Wait for me Edward and Bella!! (and maybe of course Jacob too) I want to see that wedding dress!!! I've seen a drawing of it from some book by Stephanie Meyers and its gorgeous! To the max! The sapphire hair accessory in her perfect bun is beautiful and I so can't wait to see the scenes for they're honeymoon!! And yes I am on team Edward (Jacobs fans doesn't need to hate do they?) and yes I admit, I love it when Edward break the bed which was shown in the trailer. Jacobs fan can chill cause I like Jacob too but its just that I like Edward more kay? People have different views! Great if you respect that! Though I just love this line that Robert Pattinson said on TV:

"My favorite scene is when Kristen realizes shes pregnant and she show her absolutely flat stomach."

Oh Robert you're so funny. Also have any of you guys here the soundtracks they're gonna use for the movie? Like "It will rain" by Bruno Mars (I know the ENTIRE lyrics as soon as I just fell in love with it!!) and "A Thousand Years" by Christina Perri (It warms the heart of all twilight or vampire lovers! I'm in the process of remembering the lyrics!!)? Another thing, are you guys just excited as I am? And if you already watch it, watcha think? Comment please!

P.S. Like the pic? Just look at that hotness!! *Looks and temporarily dies after being killed by they're hotness but then came back to life to watch the movie*

I feel awesome

Today was kinda epic. Its almost as epic how that one time we played tag and the tagger kinda threw a stick at my friend and she dodge it like in a game and me and my other friend saw it from the sides and it totally look like Mario when he's dodging mushrooms. Now when I say awesome, it doesn't mean its because of entirely awesome and happy things kay? I'm just feeling awesome cuz it actually happened all in one day with the most cliche and funny cousies and friends.

Anyway, I've got pinched by my cousie's boyfriend for "eyeing" his hot friend which I totally wasn't doing, I've got drenched by the rain and got laughed at by my cousin who watched me ran in the downpour as she sit there in dry condition waiting for me at the car, my MALE friend borrowed my "I'm famous online" tee since he got wet too and I must say he look Hilarious in it with a capital H, I learned today that sexy can be defined through whipping your hair and that when my Mum hold those butcher knife she looks scary but when you see her trying to cut open a coconut, you can't help but laugh.

So all that happen today and thinking about it just cracks me up. Anything epic or crazy going on with you guys? Please comment!

Awesome Showcase

Although they were some frustrating events in the process of getting into the showcase, it was all the more worth it. I can see a few glimpses of Greyson Chance and have the chance to hear this genius sing! I'm so happy to get to hear him sing and didn't really regret going to the showcase! He hates durians which is no surprise really. He was incredibly CUTE and even though they were some girls who had better opportunities to meeting him and even going as far enough to HUG him (DAMN!!!) and has they're albums of his autographed by him, I'm just so greatful to get to to the showcase anyway! It was fun and truly worth it! As a fan of him, I've totally think that all that leg sores and standing were worth it if were to hear him sing. I've hope he gets to come back again to Kota Kinabalu!

Btw I salute him for trying durians even if he didn't like it at first smell. Not many still tries it after smelling it.

Tower Heist

Tower Heist is the most cunning and funniest recent movie that out and I totally recommend you to watch. You'll totally be laughing and chuckling throughout the movie and you'll be absolutely be impressed with the unexpected plot twist it has. Simply put, its FREAKING AWESOME in its own badass yet smartass way. Plus who doesn't love Ben Stiller and Eddie Murphy in a movie? They're to perfect comedy actors that will have you entertained the WHOLE time. So get out there to a cinema and go watch it! Like as soon as you can!

Reply to:

1. Lonelyness

I mean the way Amber act when she woke up? Not when shes drunk oh and sure when entering into the comments it different but Part 1 & 2 was fine so how does making part 3 any excusable? I did ONLY mention part 3. Btw I forgot to give your poster again sorry! Guess it'll stay longer in my house until we made plans for our next hangout. Hehe.

2. not_so_lucky_girl

Your welcome girl! You deserve it! So I read your recent post and I'm all OMG right now. Seriously?!? I hope it ain't true! Oh Have you finally figure out how to adjust your wig? We should really meet-up and see if we can do a dress rehearsal. Text me if interested~

3. Life

Waddup! Haven't been to your house for like ages. You should really come over to mine!! Make an appointment already!! You have my address right? Oh yeah you can use the excuse to come and do a cosplay dress rehearsal. Not a bad idea eh? I expect a call from you!! And I don't really wanna do the curling idea. Maybe something else?

Stuff to do

With school out of the way, I can do pretty much a lot of stuff. Like practice my violin more, exercising more and hanging out more but I've just really want something new to do and yet I have no idea what. I'm pretty much just roaming around the house on my computer and eating and sleeping and I repeat the cycle the next day. Sometimes I do idiotic stuff like googling hot guys such as Alex Pettyfer and Chace Crawford (God bless these hotties!) or I go to the kitchen and make some weird snack (like yesterday I tried mixing jello with those chocolate sprinkles and it wasn't that bad. Seriously!) or I would just sit and let my mind wander to some faraway unrealistic world of mine or sometimes I just stare at people that passes by and make up some story about they're life thats probably not even nearly true in reality. Other than that though, there isn't much going on. The 3 things that I'm most expecting is Greyson Chance's showcase, Breaking Dawn part 1 (have you heard Bruno Mar's "It will Rain" song for this movie? You should!) and my trip to Hong Kong! (which is only next month). Maybe I should get a new haircut..Any suggestions?

Seek The Sleek

Its a fashion blog by Winda Tiodang and if you are simply in love with fashion, I totally recommend this blog for you to check out! Whether its high heels by Jimmy Choo or to a dress by Versace , its practically a fashion magazine. So I hope you just take some time and have a look at it!

Link: http://seekthesleek.blogspot.com/

The winner!!

Before I hit the drum roll and announce the winner of the recent competition, I would need to state my opinion on the participant's story. Starting off with:

1. not_so_lucky_girl

It did give me at least more than 50% of an impact and shock. You have successfully described Amber's personality which I'll give you credit for and it had quite logical chain of events happening but on the down side, Joshua seems a bit too casual about Ever kissing Damian but they way you write and describe the character's emotion totally made me believe that it was happening and I'm almost forget that it was MY story. Compared to last year, you have increasingly improve and I would love it if you continue doing that in the competitions to come!

And now to our NEW first-timer participant!!

2.Lonelyness

How should I say? Well I think you went a bit overboard with Amber's personality. Not that much, just a bit. Your description was too much satisfaction and that I did enjoyed reading it. However, they were some grammar mistakes that was vital since it could lead the reader to misunderstanding a bit to the story line. Another thing is you over-dramatize the story with too much "?!?!?!"or ".....". I understand if you're trying to give a good idea of how the character is feeling but I think you need to control how much you can emphasize. You also lose how you paragraphed them at Part 3. I know you're rushing with writing this story but that not an excuse seeing I gave PLENTY of time. I do give you thumbs up with the story line and your awesome skill of description. I hope to see you improve in the next competition. Gambate!

Now I shall announced the winner for this competition is...* drum roll* ...Last year's winner not_so_lucky_girl!!! She has won two time in a row now and I am still anticipating for someone who can manage to break her chain of victory. So not_so_lucky_girl will get a set of accessories from Hong Kong which includes a ring,necklace and a purse! Again to not_so_lucky_girl, BIG CONGRATULATIONS!!

Rumor has it/ Someone like you ( Glee version )

All: Oooooh! Oooooh!

Mercedes:

She, She ain't real

She ain't gon be able to love you like I will

Sure she got you owned

but baby is that really what you want

Bless your soul

you've got your head in the clouds

she made a fool out of you

and boy shes bringing you down

she made your heart melt

but you're cold to the core

Now rumor has it

she ain't got your love anymore

All:

A rumor has it! A rumor has it! A rumor has it! A rumor has it!..

Santana:

Don't forget me I beg

I remember you said

I heard that you

settled down

that you found a girl

and you're married now

I heard that you dreams came true

Guess she gave you things

I didn't give to you

Mercedes: Woah~

All:

A rumor has it! A rumor has it! A rumor has it! A rumor has it!

Santana:

Don't forget me I beg

I remember you said

All:

Never mind I'll find someone like you

I wish nothing but the best for you too

Santana:

Don't forget me I beg

I remember you said

Mercedes: Sometimes is last in love but sometimes it hurts instead

Santana: Sometimes is last in love but sometimes it hurts instead

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My current favorites song. Love the collaboration they did with this with both Adele's songs. Glee shall forever be awesome!!

Greyson Chance!!!

If you don't know who this purely talented guy is (shame on you!), he is an artist who was discovered by Ellen DeGeneres and has even signed to her first record label company eleveneleven! His cover of his number one inspiration, Lady Gaga's "paparazzi" had gotten over 43 million view on youtube and that now he has his own album "Hold on til' the night" with his most well known singles "Waiting outside the line" and "Unfriend you". He will be showcasing, here, in KOTA KINABALU, at 1Borneo, Gourmet Lane, at 17th november at 8.30pm. According to some people, the ticket ARE NOT selling here so you have to win them in radio stations such as Hitz.fm KK. I've manage to follow one of the hitz cruisers (Finally!! After some many times of driving around each day!!) at yoyo cafe! They usually only give 4 passes whenever they stop at a random place but luckily for me, they gave away 10!!! I've manage to win one!! The question are only easy if you REALLY know Hitz.fm kk and a few lives and concerts that the have advertised before. Knowing really well about Greyson Chance will help too! I'm am SO thankful to first God, my awesome Mum for checking FB for wherever the hitz cruisers are and last but not least Google!! So I can't wait!!!

Mother's opinion

A mother's opinion or point of view is like a teaspoon of wisdom added to your bland cup of water. Today was just one of those days that I had earn myself another teaspoon.

Mum: Y'know I do read bit of your blog sometime

Me: Seriously?

Mum: Yeah but only when I come across it.

Me: Oh, so what do you think of it?

Mum: I think you think of stuff thats above you or like its too mature. Its scary in fact.

Me: WHAT?!

That like shock me. I mean I've never taught of my "opinions" that way but yeah maybe it isn't what a teenager like me suppose think of but it wasn't like she disliked it though. She even bothered to state that she didn't say it was wrong to which I have humbly taken in and not further question about it. She also states although I don't act that mature as my thoughts and ideas, she think it would be better to get a little bit more serious by now. In other words, growing up.

Graduation song

I still remember when I was 12 in 2009. We did one last song and I've never describe the feeling I've felt that so here it is. We just all came back from changing our clothes into uniforms. We were all still had some traces of sweat from our last dance performance and were trying to catch our breaths as we the front row held they're mics. Then we look at parents and kids that we know watching us together like this for the last time and we realize this was it. Then the song started.

"And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives"

We look at each other smiling and just kept looking at the crowd and soon our mind concentrated on remembering the lyrics. The words that we were singing made us all aware that it wasn't going to be the same from this night on. What the lyrics portrayed, were like something we refused to admit, yet here we are singing it out. Pushing aside all dignity and pride and mustering the emotion to sing. Teary eyes threatens to ruin our make-up when we sang the chorus.

"As we go on

We remember

All the time we

Had together

And as our lives change

come whatever

we still be

friends forever"

We kept blinking, trying not to let the audience before us notice but really, everyone on that stage could tell the redness in our eyes. When we reach the instrumental part of the song, we all looked down and looked at each other. "I'm gonna REALLY miss you" was what we wanted to say and in that time we stare, when we had to sang again, it was even more harder singing the last few verses left. When we finally stop, the audience applauded as if knowing how meaningful we meant in the song as the thick red curtain fall. We didn't bother bowing much. Instead we ran to each other and hugging just about everyone. The classmates were brief and heart-wrenching but the closest people were hugged twice and we muster out sobs of "I gonna really miss you" or "good bye". All though they were some who were still stubborn and stayed away from the hugging activity almost everyone were doing, there wasn't really any regrets for me honestly. Soon we all took quick tear faced picture together and went home. We sat in our cars flashing the faces and memories of our friends and when we finally tuck ourselves to bed, we stare up the ceiling and think that this was it.

Updates~~

Exams are over, I have manage to catch up with all 15 mangas and 10 online stories. I have a hangout tomorrow! WoOotz~!! I am learning to be considerate and I'm happier nowadays believe it or not. I've brought the serious me that I usually don't show and I've feel much happier. I've hope you all did not forget your competition! Remember its due date can come in a blink of eye if you don't do something now. I've been feeling enlighten to point that I've feel that I've mark something and that I need no longer need to impress or to act dully unnecessarily anymore. I've got new stuff. BWAHAHAHA. Let's see what else is going on in this crazy world..Oh yeah, now that exams and studies of this year are out the window..This calls for FUN!! and PARTAY! and TIME WITH FRIENDS and FAMILY. So if you have a wish or things you wanna accomplish this year, NOW is the perfect time to do so cause we've got exactly 2 month to do whatever the hell we want before this year end. So my readers, I don't know about you but I think I may do a few daring things before this year ends. Got any ideas what you guys want me to do? List it in the comments and i'll see to it. Bye and hv fun suggesting~

Change

It is a topic that I somewhat bring up for a few moment in very little post so here it is. Lately I've been trying to change myself and I'm trying to live life as it is for me. I'm trying to not over analyze life. I'm just going along the borders and getting through hurdles without sweating over the unimportant. I'm trying to kill some old habit but as the saying goes "Old habits die hard".I won't specifically state my reason to reform myself but one of the main things were how I wanted to be known and remember as. I'm trying to get myself straight and to try not to get the negatives effect me. Like who cares if I look like a weirdo dancing to random music playing? I mean what are you suppose to do when there is an awesome groove music on? Stand around and quietly sing the lyrics without showing a smile to it? Thats pretty darn weird for me! Sure I may do quite weird moves but hey Jagger did his own thing base on his mere feelings and everyone didn't mind, so why should you be so shy? I'm trying to pull away from people who may be bad influence. Not obviously but if say you do something that I myself would not want to do as a person, then fine but if you reach out to me with that bad trait I'll be like running or pushing your hand away or start insulting you or scolding you instinctively (Note: You all been warn!!).

I've tried not to cursed and I'm open to doing things I've never thought I've been able to do. Though is not as easy as it may seem but as I'm changing old bad traits comes out and I'm trying to minimize them. I've been actually LOOKING on the bright side. I've have reform a purpose that is enough for me to live a life. I do not see why people would kill themselves or get abortions when they have such a lovely chance? Sure they may been billions of people on this earth yet why is it that you of all the other more billions that could have been born is here? Sitting on your chair staring at your computer screen reading THIS? I am VERY serious when I say that every life has a purpose and to not give these lives the opportunity to do things that are probably much more better than you could have ever done in this world would be a tearful tragedy. This is for all the ladies who got pregnant and got left by their man, well let me state that even if the man that you love your all rejected you, you have a child to raise and love with all your heart. Women, men and children alike may lose the partners of their lives but they can always make and have a family. This is one of love most awesome and greatest gift and advantage. In any relationship, we are connecting to a "family". We can easily get over pain with just family. Another fact why love comes in many humane options. And to all the suicidal-ls, although you may think that you have nothing to live for but you have a great responsibility to live for the future people that will love you. So don't go to the doctors and ask to go under the knife or taking a gun and pointing it to your head, live for those who needs you. Live maybe not for yourself, but for others who needs you.

So if you read this and think "Yeah she's got a point. I should do the same as well!" MEAN it. PROVE it. Stop procrastinating and mean what you say or think. And if you think this is all bullshit then at least respect me as the human that we all are, and don't influence me and don't bother with me cause I don't need people like that around me. So I'm not telling you to change but I hope that y'all at least respect that and not provoke me and in return I'll do the same? Comprande? Thanks. Peace and Love!

Updates!

So I have literally exactly 1 week to study before my exam that coming next Friday. I have been studying but I don't think my mind have been processing the acquired information as much as I want it to be. Tomorrow I'll be going to the Battle of the Dancers! The interact club from my school is organizing and though I am not a member, I decided to help seeing its a funding for the orphanage! I hope y'all work on your stories for the competition~ I had quite the drama for a few days ago. I'm trying to go over my last hurdle over that. Right now I'm quite in a good mood because I'm listening to a Jazz cover called "The lady is the tramp" by Tony Bennett & Lady Gaga! Its feels so casually cool and happy and jolly that if you watch the official video, you can feel that by looking at these two AMAZING artist singing together like they're old friends with song that will NEVER grow old. The perfect melody of the sax and the trumpet. Thats what I love about jazz, it represents emotions in a whole other way that you can't help but sway with the music. Absolutely my current favorite at the moment. I'm trying to be happy while keeping my actions and self in check. So hope you all have a WONDERFUL OCTOBER my readers!!!!! Now back to my song~

"I love the free! fresh! wind in my hair

Life without care

Oohhh I'm so broke!

Its ook!

I hate California! Its cold and its damp!

Thats why the lady is a tramp (I'm a tramp!)"

Lean on me!

So I've been decorating my net like my theme for Google Chrome is Dolce&Gabbana and I'm loving it! I've even change my mum's chrome at her laptop to her fav designer, Anna Sui. It add a sort of "you" when I go online and I feel myself. I've even change up my blog and profile pic if you guys notice and it feel fresh and calm to see it now seeing I'm trying to go for that vibe. So this post is dedicated to my friend, Life's recent post.

You don't have to figure it alone, I can help! Having you've been having a lot of "me" times? I told you many times before but in a "me" time, you don't just absorb everything around you and yourself. Sure it okay to admit your personality flaws that aren't a positive thing, as long as you change that, you're alright but you gotta remember your positive points too. We aren't perfect true but it doesn't mean we're just garbage. Like for me, I can be a bit TOO much which at times are good but bad as well. I'm quite thick skin and I don't care at times. It okay to build a small sense of ego if it would help your self-esteem and earn you some self-confidence. In life there are many thing that could happen. With that fact in mind, there are people who are so shy and acts cowardly so they won't get in on the action because they're afraid. Then you have people like me, who will take action but is decisive about her next act. Simply put if I were you, I would go to that class and deem my seat before anyone else. If they don't like it, leave them. You took the sit earlier and its your seat right?

Another thing, you say you can solve it but you can't when you are holding doubts within you. You shouldn't doubt yourself at all if you're not at fault. You should make a list of your pros and cons about yourself and then just accept them. As long as you improve your flaws as well as keeping your good points, you can prove that you are YOU. You should embrace and love you for you can't love anyone else when you can't love yourself.

You're teen and at this phase you have to think what YOU want and who YOU are. Its normal and others shouldn't be the judge of that when they're teens themselves. So far my "who am I" mental essay have gone this far:

"Hi my name is Tatiana and I'm 14. I'm a semi-crazy,semi-random. I suddenly burst out in a weird fit of laughter when I think of something funny and my friends freak out at that momentarily. I am a indecisive and messed up liar.I have a confidence which I am always constantly building up. My existence is known by people whom I'm not even close to and I'm proud at that because I love to mark my very presence on this earth by just being me. I am insecure and when you push me in a way I REALLY don't like, I am not afraid to slash out and act like a bitch. I can be cheeky but that rare seeing I'm barely feeling mischievous. I have old fashion yet semi-modern (?) parents with two awesome smartass bros. I'm very good at killing mosquitos yet I love LOVE vampires. I like to mess with people, especially does that can't handle me. I LOVE GOD and I have a mouth that slips in bad things at times. I love that I can do what I love to do and I'm VERY blunt and straight-forward at certain specific moments. I want to study in the UK and be an author as well as a journalist. I want to travel and learn more to embrace who I am and to embrace this Earth crazy culture. I kinda hate being evil at times but I've just can't help it and is working on that. I am open-minded and I can forgive and forget MOST things. I will only ever deny an evil act that happen based on evil purposes. I embrace the bi,the homos and such because I've believe that each human deserves to be understood no matter how many times you see the obvious and because I am human myself and I want people to understand me. I don't care if they still are bad to me because at least I'm not the bad guy in it. I never talk behind my hater's back because I know deep down that they just bully me just for they're own reasons seeing as they seem to "claim" to KNOW me. I will scream shut up! if I'm irritated and I hate people that does not try to understand me but I've don't really hate long. I mean I don't like being a hater."

This is what I learn of myself so far. So what about you guys? How far do you know yourself? and if you're true to it, why should some rumors stop you from being who you are?

Competition

This is my 2nd competition and it'll be a bit trickier than the last one. This is for those who are my commenters and for girls obviously. Moving aside the sexist statement, the prizes are jewellary which will only be further specified at the announcement post of the winner. Note there is no s at the end of the last word in the previous sentence.

I want you to do a lovey-dovey scene using Damian, Amber, Joshua and Ever ONLY. The thing about this is you can make any one of the characters be with any other partners. You can go DamianxEver or AmberxJoshua or you can use the usual couples or maybe if you're confident, you can do a explicit relationship of AmberxEver and DamianxJoshua. I'm very open minded so yeah I support that last suggestion if you want to but keep in mind that whn you describe them, please make sure they don't act like someone other then who they are in my stories. Its insulting to me. So you can make a sweet love scene or a hot steamy, I'm all arms for it! Who knows, if you can balance the logic and the daring storyline in ur post, you might win on the spot. Plus, it doesn't have to be entirely lovey and steamy, just MOSTLY. You can like add a drama, like say Amber and Ever is making out and Joshua enters and caught them. Something like that would definently make me excited to read!

Have to be at LEAST 5 paragraphs or more! (3 sentences= an actual paragraph. So any sentence less than that doesn't count as a paragraph kay?) Sorry I didn't post earlier :P

So the expiry date is 3 November and I'll really looking forward to your post. Please post it only on this post kay?

P.S. if you doing explicit relationship, I'll accept if the characters are different cuz they would be different if they were in to explicit relatioships)

Updates

I have exams from 14th till the 2oth of October and starting tomorrow I'll be only on my com within a two hour limit which I'm dead set on following. This will be muah last exam so I will have LOADS of time to update stories oh and I'll be sort of busy rebelling and getting this one thing that I'm setting my heart on for it to come true.

I'll be going to KL (this is like 66% that I'm sure we're going) to see my new niece! Her name is Noelle and she's just born this year in July 28th. Hopefully she isn't as evil genius as her older sis, 4 year old Avril who has the same birthday as me. Evil, runs in the family :) I am 100% sure that I will be going Hong Kong for I think 2 weeks or so, but thats only in november or december I figure.

Anyway, I was in the mall with my Mum while waiting for my facilist to finish her lunch break and I saw this brunnette dude wearing an unfamiliar high school uniform. He was foreign and its been some time since I see a foreigner other than through skype. Especially a hot teenage one. He had electrifying blue eye and some freckles which can only be seen if you were at least a person away from him. So I he was hanging with some asian guys (they weren't bad looking either but he was like bam! out of all of them) and I was about to pass by till this foreign dude got push by one of friends as a joke and bump into me. He apologized and he actually heard of me and I realize he's a lil brother of one my friends. Ironic much..

I have some shopping and you might win some of the stuff that I'll buy in these trips. Thats right the competition I promise. Details on that on the next post after this. So look forward to that my readers!!

Ah decisions, you make me sick..

Literally though. I'm ACTUALLY sick. I have a slight fever and a sore throat but I don' think its because of the decisions that I just found out last night. Its a huge life changing decision and I want it SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much to happen next year. I can't give details yet seeing its not confirmed but just pray for me that it'll happen my readers! Please? Still I have bits of doubts so....I'll need one last person's opinion then maybe I know what I really want to do.

Today..

was fun. Other than the pain I've am so used to emitting in my feet seeing I wore ankle boots with heels today. Surprisingly a lot of teenager took the public holiday on Friday today as a chance to hang out and Suria was like pack with teens everywhere. You could see a mixture of guys and girls in all kinds of fashion. I watch Johnny English Reborn today and it was EPICLY and FUNNILY AWESOME!!! So recommend you to watch. Plus seeing as it was release today, the halls were pack! So everyone was laughing, commenting and even clapping throughout the movie. I saw a couple of my seniors and a few ex-classmates but the most number type of people you could see was COUPLES! I don't know the specifics but usually when its nearing to October, they are a LOT of couples. I'm not sure people notice but when you reach like the last 4-5 months of the year, you'll suddenly see relationships status posted up at ur FB or when you go to a mall, you'll see way more couples than the other month.

I'm not sure if I'm correct but around this time when you made pass MOST of the year, people tend to suddenly want to have a companion by their side that they can affectionately spend time with. Sometime you see this phase take affect much earlier like this September or even more in October which I call the "Hormonal Month". Its always like this, for me anyway so I don't know about you guys. Sometimes the number couples are not as re actively the same every year but its bound to have some sudden bit of romance that just pops out of nowhere. So you either see loads of couples or guys suddenly finding and flirting more than usual. This phase doesn't seem to react with single girls but I'm not entirely sure of that. Sometimes even girls start to go out there and catch "fish" than usual. Just less noticeable. My opinion anyway.

So other than that, we shop and I had a lil drama with my Mum and I'm a not proud to say that "I am broke..." *sigh* But its not like I regret what I spent at least. So hope you guys out there had an awesome day like today too!

Updates!!!

So tomorrow I'm going all rock on mode to shop with friends and because I've feel the need to try something new. I have less things to do now. I've just finish least most of my tasks and I've feel lighter. * queuing in "Lighters" by Eminem ft. Bruno Mars & Royce Da 5'9* Freaking love the rap. So yeah, I've also be having report card day! (silent but loud screams emits...). I might be having competition but not this month. Maybe after my last exam, I'll do one where you the comment-ers can participate. So be on a lookout for that. Now back to my rap~~

"I love it when I tell them

shove cause it wasn't that

Long ago when Marshall sat

flustered, lacked luster, Cause

he couldn't cut mustard, muster

up nothing Brain fuzz cause

he's buzzin, woke up from that

Buzzer. Now you wonder why he

does it how he does it?

Wasn't cause he had buzzards

Circling around his heads

waiting for him to drop dead

was it?

Or was it cause some bitches

wrote him off? Little hussy ass

scuzzes, fuck it, guess it

doesn't matter now, does it?"

My fav part of the song!! Can never get tired rapping it~~

Today weak, Tomorrow strong

I'm like listening to Lil Wayne - How To Love - Christina Grimmie & Tyler Ward (Rock Cover) and I've feel somehow empowered though isn't suppose to be empowering but sweet and understanding. Now I feel like those peace hippies that just wants peace and love. Call me a total girl but I don't see why can't we love? I mean I'm not telling everyone to get along and stuff but those that just pisses you off, why can't we learn to love em after all that hate again? I mean we can't hate forever but we surely can with loving. Its just hard but worth it. People tells me I forgive and that my love is easy and sometimes I guess it is but thinking about it now, I don't think so. If you look around and think how much the people around have done for you out of love, its nice and well I've guess I've experience enough. I've learn that we're all human and we can't just let superficial insecurities of society be the official judge of feelings. Sometimes you gotta ask yourself this "Do I like hate?". Not really. We hate cause we have an attitude. We hate cause we have a problem with certain things that are sometimes petty reasons but in truth, we're too scared or pathetic or dumb to give love one more chance. Teenagers especially are open about it but sometimes we aren't giving it our all. Even if it didn't work out, at least you can honestly say you gave your VERY best. "Love is such an old fashioned word that you youths today don't really give your all into". Now back to my wonderful song~

You had a lot of crooks try to steal your heart
Never really had luck, couldn’t ever figure out
How to love
How to love

You had a lot of moments that didn’t last forever
Now you're in this corner tryna put it together
How to love
How to love

For a second you were here
Now you over there
It's hard not to stare, the way you moving your body
Like you never had a love
Never had a love~

Glee and the Glee Project!

Now I love Glee not only for their Electric, heart touching and AWESOME versions of song that are both modern,classic or not well known to the youth today. They have both realistic and yet dramatic story line for each of the characters. Its like High School Musical (only way better than them) combine with 90210! But what I admire the most it the acceptance of different people from different background with such interesting personality. We have Kurt who is gay and have an awesome sense of fashion or Rachel who is extremely bitchy disguised under all those awful sweaters or how Puck is like this awesome hard ass dude that is for Jewish. These days, you can barely get such acceptance just anywhere and viewers can relate to them as well. God bless you Ryan Murphy!

The glee project is just as awesome with some similarities like the Glee cast and just as awesomely talented in singing, dancing and being them. Again applauds to Ryan Murphy. Love you till the end Cameron and Damian!! <3

A bad habit

I have this horrible habit of being forward or to say blunt. Sometimes I do consider things but if I really want to, I'll go out and just say it just to see your reaction, your answer and what you're gonna do next. I'm just a curious and mischievous person though I don't seem like it.

I remember once they were some friends in some stupid love triangle and the guy involve seem too confused what to do next, while we went bowling and I so happen to be having a break as he was at the opposing team, I went and ask him the question he asks himself quietly. He was shock at first and didn't expect that. The conversation were a bit awkward that we started debating (I felt pathetic thinking about that now but not so much at the least) and soon he knew what to do and the lil love fuse blew off.

Sometime this sense of no modesty can lead me to trouble like how I got some guy to scold me about me not being "feminine" enough and should just shut up. I ask him why and he said I'm a girl then I labelled him a sexist which most of my classmate didn't know the meaning to. When I explain that he labels everyone only by gender at that they have no free will of being who they are, they accuse him of being a gay and he got mad at me and I pointed at them saying "Dude! They're the ones calling you gay!! All I called you was sexist..". And then feeling the idiot he felt that day, he never talk but glare at me since. Though he was right about shutting up but I just can't help it. Its in my nature!! Plus they are some advantages. I can use to black mail people bwahahahahha (I don't really do that often but still...) Whats you really bad habit? Me curious =W=

Updates!

I've just came back from Miri last night and I have to admit that the trip was more fun than my expectations. I'd barely had time for shopping and only manage to spend on one lil trinket. The Engagement party was crazy. Especially my side of the family, they just kept on drinking and dancing and stuff. While the bride's side of the family were just a bit jolly but they so did not party hard like my side did. Though they were some that were drunk along with my aunts that proves to men than women can hell yeah drink. Heck, they were some that were so drunk that even offer me, an underaged 14 year old girl, a beer or wine. I had to hold a laugh rejecting their offer. The trip here to Miri were okay but the trip to go home was filled with laughter as me and my cousie joked around without stopping. So yeah, plus I've got two new dresses and flats. Woohoo! So now I'm free and I miss my friends and would love for a hangout?

Sensibility

Okay after listening and watching too many love song vids and talking to my love strucked friend a moment ago, I've feel like ice-cream and I'm melting. Like when you see some thing Aww~~ and it get more Aww~~ and you feel all mushy and stuff. Its not a bad feeling. You need this vulnerability so it shows how much of a human you are. Just don't show it to the wrong people. Like as a teen, you learn that you have to go through this "I like you" phase with someone and the more that relationship grows, you'll realize your heart is in that "I love you" phase and that when you're serious with this person. You might get rejected but you can't give up on love just because of that one rejection. Life is way too short to give up on love just because of a rejection because when you do find the ONE, all those rejections were just tiny phases of your life that you had to go through to meet that person. And sometimes it doesn't turn out the way we THINK it would, so we just gotta accept it and we grow. Its harder when you actually DO experience it but it just gets better from there. Now I shall sink into lovely bliss and go back to my love songs. May the Goddess Aphrodite bless you reader!

my thinking today

I'm still harry potter crazy and have been looking at jokes on Voldermort. BWAHAHAHA

My Fav joke is this one hahahahaha

If I were spiderman, I follow them to hogwart. hehe
Gosh After such a long time no interenet, I have loads of email like this pic here ==
Thought when Exam finish I was like so casual and singing, but inside I'm like this dude :D

Romeo and Juliet?

Calculate to be 15,000 years old and found like this in a embrace. Does not know of the couple's story but ironically found in Italy, where Shakespeare is said to have written where Romeo and Juliet live. Proof that they're is hope in the sentence "Love lasts."

I smiled non-stop when I saw this :)

Pissed

..and you know who you are! If you're going to be a walking public toilet and STD carrier bitch around my friends just because of me, I will make sure all hell broke lose on you. I will take out all your fears and mistakes that you think I don't know out to the public of your so called "peasants" and will make sure that your very existence will be nothing more than a leech with no meaning on this earth for a whole 2 weeks. So if I hear you talking smack at my friend again, I will drag you down to a bitch fight and literally make you understand the force of gravity. Your face will be kissing the floor, the walls and the dirt on my shoe. So you have two choices:

1. Slander my friend and you will get physically whoop ass

2. Actually fight face to face with me using verbal insults instead at my friend.

I believe we have come to an understanding no?

Updates~~

Exams are OVER! I shall now sink myself into my freedom again~ BWAHAHAHAHA Oh how I miss the sound of my finger typing hours away on the keyboard and my PC that greets me like an old friend. So yeah I've been going through intense hell for the pass 5 days? And now I'm back with things to do. A friend of mine birthday is coming in October and me and some friends decided to do a SURPRISE present. So I have that to do and I also have to go to my Leo Installation. If anyone of you are interested in coming to this formal but fun event, comment on this post and I'll give you the info!

I have to go to some engagement party next week for a couple of days and I am less than excited about it cause the drive to Miri is terribly horrid plus I hate sitting in a car for hours. I'm not sure what universal force is doing this but lately a lot of people been calling me for advices or smsing me or even emailing me. Its like suddenly problems starting hitting everyone and they come for me. I am taken aback by some of they're problems though surprisingly they are about love problems so I've been really pump up.

Surprisingly I know two girls who asks me the same question only they're both in a different situation "How to not fall for a guy?". Obviously I was shock and smiling at the same time but mostly shock. There are two type of feelings, the good ones and the bad ones. Ironically, you can only control your bad feeling but never the good feelings. You got to except the good feelings naturally and transform or forget the bad ones y'know? A question to keep you guys wondering: Are your actions just as true as your feelings?

Speaking of love, I shall work on me story now~ Answer the question in the comments~