I believe in destiny

I do and I've feel much more confident to admit that. Call it what you may, but I believe everything that happens to us, whether we choose it or it was some ironic accident, is suppose to happen. Like how I'm supposed to go through the most worse though technically productive student formation seminar. Although its much more boring compared to last years and I can't say I didn't hate it the whole time but at the same time I didn't quite as complain. I put myself in people's shoes and thinking about it, I start to be a bit more enthusiastic. Negative influences are coming back again but I think I made the best out of my time today. I truly believe so and y'all can roll your eyes and scoff at me for it cuz I know you didn't do what I did so I ain't hating. Sometimes things sucks and if you want you can briefly shout that fact out but then you can lessen the reality of the fact if you just make your best. I know have a new found respect for people who knows that did something wrong but does it repeatedly anyway, just a teensy bit. I thank them for reminding me not to be them, reminding me the resolutions I made to myself. So thanks a hell lot. You improve me. Keep it up.


I'm also writing this because I learned that people can look at you judgmentally and sometimes we tell them to stop being such a stereotype. After what I learned today, instead of telling them to shut up and to stop from telling me what I can't do or telling me whats wrong or right or I'm ridiculous, I rather turn around and look them straight in the eyes to say "watch me."


I believe that all the hurt we gone through makes us what we are today. You don't remember the past that hurt you but what it taught you. I'm a bit more confident with myself and although it was boring, it didn't mean I've never smiled in the whole seminar. I had a few laughs too so it wasn't that bad. Lately I've been cold towards the fossos I said before this post. I am a very sensitive person towards matters that evolves in my life. Especially ones that really makes me want to say something REAL cruel. Like as if you just slightly nudge me, I would scream out all these really horrible thoughts of you. GAH~ At this rate, that might actually happen. 


I also know that we meet the people we choose to hang but we don't control our actions once we care about them. Once they became a big part of your life. We lost ourselves once they become that important and then thats when things goes to where meant to be and sooner or later, we accept it and pursue it and eventually we find our purpose and joy. We find how we benefit in this world instead of indulging ourselves. Thinking about it, its sort of really cool huh?


My advice, NEVER let what others slander about you be true. Smile at your haters and laugh at them when you succeed. Don't be humble on your capabilities but hunger to improve them. Consider other's situations as well cause you may not understand them but should chooses not to influence bad vibes at them. After all, like a nice quote says. "We are all playing the same game, just in different levels. We are all walking through the same hell, just dealing with different devils." Might keep that in mind.