Updates!!!!!

Its July!!! and I am currently not exactly that excited as it sounds. So lets start with some bad updates. So I do you know that you have to go through that horrible awkward meeting that that someone you sort of have bad relationship with? I have to go through that. She currently hates me in a way I would. A hate that would literally physically hurt you. I do that but she the only one I know who hates me so much to inflict pain on me. I can protect myself but y'know there are some patching up to do with her. I have Geo projects and Science projects too and out of all the time, my printer broke and I have to pass it up in the matter of weeks!! I kept scolding my printer and my Mum was just like "y'know its never gonna reply back to you right?". Yes I do scold, lecture and talk to things that will never talk back. Just ask my mirror, TV, remote control and blow dryer.

Now the good updates! Tomorrow I'm going to meet up with friends in celebration for this friend who we met last year but he actually lives in Australia but tonight he comes back to KK. So we're planning to paintball, arcade, karaoke, shop, movie and eat all day BWAAAHAHAHAHAHHA. I also got some new stuff hehe. I found a new therapy or to say method to ease the human heart and mind! I had a few problems and now I've got a better and less dangerous way of "medication"!

Updates!!!

So I've been posting 3 stories in 1 week and thought I should give my writer self a break and talk about whats been going on in my life! I mean what about me?!?! At first I didn't think about it but after writing the draft of the 3rd story of the week on a piece of paper, I just realize it! So yeah.

I painted my nail sunshine yellow. I mean I don't want those typical colors like pink or purple or black or white. I want something normally you don't use. The island was fun. I don't think I got tanned or anything. I'm obsessed with Black Eyed Peas new song -Don't Stop the Party. I freakin love techno music with raps!!

I've been going out and gathering some materials for stuff and I'm tired. I just wanna have some fun!!! Gosh is it me or lately I've been really thirsty than usual? I've been drinking stuff from Lemonade to Milk Tea. I drank water like only once a day. Tomorrow is a public holiday apparently. Though it kinda makes no difference since tomorrow is a Saturday. Well thats it for now. I wanna sleep early tonight!

The Holidays!! and updates.

Exams are over and I plan to mostly hangout and just be laid back on everything. So yeah whats been going on lately. Scotty won American Idol. No surprise there but he ain't my fav though. I just finish my chocolate cheese cake and feel stuffed. I will be going to a cosplay shop this tues with some friends. Its the budget that I'm a bit worried of.

I'm feeling kinda happy so since its been so long, maybe I'll do an expressin bit.

so the story start

between a contest

of you, me and her

I'm not like her at all

she may be pretty and sweet

but I won't cry hopelessly

Nor will I comfort or help

my enemy in love.

With lipstick as a weapon

I continue to catch your heart

Can't you see my heart beat

for you only?

Love is war so it isn't abnormal

to continue to fight

Until the true victor of your heart

is announced and have made its stand

only then will I lay my armor down

and move on to the next

Basically its about this girl who fight for a guy with another girl. She seem to be the full spirited type. Watcha think? Comment!

Today was just...

Fucking horrible. Like literally.In a verbal sense. I decided to brought my nintendo DS to school seeing that there isn't spot-check during Friday. * queuing in "Friday" song* Okay now stop. And anyway There was this kid who apparently had some problems with most of they guys because he's LITERALLY the most annoying and show off teen ever. So there was a hater's group abt him on Facebook with post of the worse kind of insults that male genders could ever come up with.

I at first felt pity about it and thought he really had it rough until now. The fucking asshole reported a complain to th disciplinary teacher saying that it isn't fair that I could bring it when he can't. Well you obviously knew that I planned to get away with it so why can't you the do the same if you wanted to do it? I never mess with you. Fuck. I never even talk to you. Not even a word. So why? You had to mess my whole fucking day when I never even once interrupted yours. Seriously now I know exactly why people hate you. And now you just earned yourself a new hater you motherfucking asshole who ad nothing to do but decided to put an imaginary condom in your brain and run that shitty mouth of yours. Fuck you dude. I hope someday Karma will hit up with you bad. Like 20 times bad.

Like as if you're trying to bring justice to the school. If you're trying to be good then why not go ahead and mess with the seniors if you're trying to be all motherfucking good-two-shoes. Oh wait. You can't cause you don't have the balls to and decided to mess with people you've never associate yourself with,. Well guess what motherfucker if you think I'm one of those people that you can just tell on that you hell wrong to think so. So go ahead. Go around being a bastard and shit as many as you want on people's business but you may never have that one thing you want in you life at the moment. 7 month and 3 years is still long way to go and I have no doubt you'll experience hell within that life span you motherfucking asshole. You're just this little bastard lame brained motherfucking dickhead who hasn't got any real achievement in his 14 years of life to be proud of nor do you have once fought your own "battle" case you know what? You're a wuss that runs to his mama when he falls down. You're lesser than the position man. No wait you more of a baby aren't you?

FYI though, your mama can't always be there to face your bullies for you. If I ever seen you do anything wrong at all. I will not hesitate to report you back. And if you don't pick up your courage which I doubt you'll ever will, then you're going to being the miserable motherfuckind dickhead you are now.

R.I.P

This is dedicated to my schoolmate, Chun, for I found out this morning that he passed away last night. I never knew he had leukemia. He just seem carefree and didn't had any worries. He like any other guys. The clown of the group he was hanging. Its like the picture I had of all the form 2 together smiling and joking around had a missing part. Like someone just took out scissors and cut him out of that picture permanently.I did notice he wasn't in school a lot but I didn't take it as it was weird for him to come irregularly. At first nobody believed because he was online last night on facebook when it turned out it was the last thing he did before he left. It was just a rumor and we all wanted it to be untrue until our class teacher confirmed it during assembly.

We all were shock. Eyes widen. Mouth hanging open. Soon chatters starts and we were told to give a brief silence to pray. And in that silence, my heart felt sad. Christina started crying and Denise & Chan Yng tried to hush her silently to pray. My legs felt weak and numb. Tears formed at the very corner of my eyes. Its amazing how someone you know but not necessarily close to can give you such grief now that they're gone.

So I'm gonna say this now. Please God may you forgive and bless his soul and that he is in heaven by your side. And Chun,I'm really sorry if weren't all that close but I sincerely hope that you are somewhere in peace and happiness.I also hope to go to your funeral and give one final goodbye. Its hurt to say goodbye but it hurts and stabs more to say goodbye forever.

Oh my gosh I think I'm going to cry now.

Being sensitive

Some people says they hate people that cries over easily stuff, others can't simply be strong. Both sides in my opinion are wrong to me.You have to let your emotions out because they are times when no one can hold it in all the time. That what are other people for and is also what are friends for. I want a friend to by my side to support me and I can let out my emotions pour out and after that I'll feel better and stronger. I want to pour out all that I feel before it becomes full and start spilling everywhere. You must not cry over the same thing all the time. You either cry and just let it go or do something about it.

There is no wrong crying just as there is no wrong to smiling right? Thats why I try to understand and be by your side but I guess I forgot to empty myself and ended spilling all over the place. So I don't know whether you know this but in my heart I always pray to become a better and stronger me. "Please help me watch my mouth Lord." "Please help me to be more honest to myself." It stuff like that which repeats in my heart.

Do you know that you're not a coward for showing your true feelings to others? You're pretty brave but you sometime gotta guard and let them out at the right timing you know? Its like you're brave but an idiot too but I'm an idiot and a coward so...

I love it till it brought tears.

Song:

Tsunaida te ni Kiss wo (try listen piano version)

I heard it from an anime and was just touched when I read the lyrics.

Lyrics:

Soshite bouya wa nemuri ni tsuita
ikizuku hai no naka no honoo
hitotsu, futatsu to ukabu fukurami itoshii yokogao
daichi ni taruru ikusen no yume, yume

Gin no hitomi no yuragu yoru ni
umare ochita kagayaku omae
ikuoku no toshitsuki ga
ikutsu inori wo tsuchi e kaesshitemo

Watashi wa inori tsuzukeru
douka konoko ni ai wo
tsunaida te ni kisu wo

Soshite bouya wa nemuri ni tsuita
ikizuku hai no naka no honoo
hitotsu, futatsu to ukabu fukurami itoshii yokogao
daichi ni taruru ikusen no yume, yume

Gin no hitomi no yuragu yoru ni
umare ochita kagayaku omae
ikuoku no toshitsuki ga
ikutsu inori wo tsuchi e kaesshitemo

Watashi wa inori tsuzukeru
douka konoko ni ai wo
tsunaida te ni kisu wo

Watashi wa inori tsuzukeru
douka konoko ni ai wo
tsunaida te ni kisu wo

English:
So the little infant fell into a deep sleep.
Among the grey ashes in the flames shining...First one,then two ...
Surfaces numerous of your faces

A thousand dreams trickle back to the earth
On the night when the silver eyes were trembling , the shining you was born
Across millions of years,the prayers have already returned back to the earth

I will still continue to pray
Please bestow upon this child your love
Upon our joined hands, leave a gentle kiss

So the little infant fell into a deep sleep.
Among the grey ashes in the flames shining...First one,then two ...
Surfaces numerous of your faces

A thousand dreams trickle back to the earth
On the night when the silver eyes were trembling , the shining you was born
Across millions of years,the prayers have already returned back to the earth

I will still continue to pray
Please bestow upon this child your love
Upon our joined hands, leave a gentle kiss

I will still continue to pray
Please bestow upon this child your love
Upon our joined hands, leave a gentle kiss