I've been ignorant

Not in a bad sense nor for a bad situation but lately I've been so into my current work which is my PMR that seems to be a constant excuse for me to keep dwelling myself in work together with my friends but I almost forgot about other things. Things that are so important me and although I was getting used to its absence, most of me were ready to not see it ever again. However, a small part of me wished that I see them again


There has been so many stuff going on and I'm pretty sure its not just me but time seems to speed up a lot this year. Like its helping get over this huge obstacle of my last year as a lower form student as fast as it can. I mean its April already! It felt like just yesterday I was still in the middle of February. And during the fast phase of time, I had loads of stuff going on and today I sort of almost fainted with vague memories of what had happen since I had some conscience left in me. I saw white splotches everywhere but I manage to keep awake and I'm sure of that since I saw a few people's faces and I'm sure in between the tempting provoking of my mind to tell me to sleep and from my desire to stay awake. I've done some PRETTY embarrassing things but you know what screw even more, I can't recall what really happened. Not one bit. GAH.


Anyway, not the point of this post, suddenly I see things a bit slower in a more steadier pace that I realized people whom I was once expected to see even though now I don't. This person seem to affect in a manner that wasn't at all moving but it was a familiar gesture that I was fond of. Maybe still even am. Who knows. The heart is strange contraption that almost seem unpredictable. However, I'm not hoping anything from this sudden appearance of this person. I've grown through stuff to know what to expect and what not to expect. Though sometimes its exciting when the unexpected comes at you right?