Thinking it back. . .

Well its the end of 2009!!!! And I feel like thinking about some old memories. I now realize why some of the old can't never look at the light at OUR century with all the technologies and stuff. Its because in their days, where everything seems to be just fun and happy enough for them, are the days where sometimes our century could never hold but can only keep changing.So I guess I might be like that when I'm old or maybe not. Who knows?

But sometimes it's like to the old the next generation is nothing but for the young to repair the mistakes they left behind or couldn't repair or for the young to make their own mistakes. Within that process they learn things and well. . .they may learn it through the though way or the easy way. This year I learn things the easy way but for things that I never ever encounter or knew it exist, I had to learn it out the tough way. Now I would like to separate the bad and good memories.

The Bad

I seen the dramas, the fights, but also the harsh truth. For 2009, I wanted to become more tough in those things. I wanted to stand up instead of being punch down and staying down crying. I used to do that only I did fight back but it was a small blow. Next year, I intend to have more self-confidence and stand up. Even my older brother now considered me as a "rebellious teen" which made me happy a little.

The Good

I realize what I posses since I am now "rebellious" , I posses in fighting back at my parents. Sometimes they pin me down. Like holding me back on stuff when I really am confident with what I CAN do. Like I could have told that hair stylist who cut out my horrible hair EXACTLY what to do but no. Mum was the one who told her what to do without even asking me if I agree to it. When I saw hair, I was so mad and when Mum kept embarrassing me infront of that hairstylist (which she thinks she is cheering me up instead of embarrassing me.), I shot up this face with my eyes like I never did before and her smile fade. She kept quite and just ask me what to do next. So every time she brings up about my hair, I gave her that same look and she frowns and kept quite. I knew that I am capable to do that any time. Did I regret it? No. Honestly no. I don't feel guilt at all. I feel sorta happy. Nowadays, she know next time how capable I am a little.

This also happens to my Dad. I still have my cough and when I feel awfully tired and kept coughing, I look at Dad with my eyes. It made him look away and that he feel guilty about it somehow. I never seen Dad do that at me. It was a good experience for me in fact. Now can make them feel that because I can do that same face with that expression. I can now "unpin" myself. I feel kinda powerful now!! Hahahahaha! LoL!! >W<

ok! Thats all about it. Look!! Look how much Good happen to me more then the bad!! Bwahahahaha!! 2009 is definitely considered a GREAT year for me!!!